flirty thirty

good morning Louise

lets begin the day together

making sure my body are very comfortable
if there is any tension spots in my body that may have come from a difficult dream during the night
just breathe into that area
and let it go

feel how comfortable it is
for my body to be where it is
feel the warmth and the peace
and know that today will be a new day
such as i have never had before

i may have some general plans for the day
and i know what some of the experiences may be
but not all of them

when we awaken in the morning
we never know exactly exactly how the day will end
delightful surprises
and wonderful adventures are before us

ALL OF MY THOUGHTS CREATE MY FUTURE
every thought i think is creating my future
now it really doesn’t matter
what sort of thoughts i used to think in the past
in all those mornings i awaken to before

the only thing that matters is the kind of though i am choosing to think now
in this very moment

together now
lets release from my consciousness
all fear and anxiety
all anger and resentment
all guilt and the need for punishment
lets dissolve all sadness and jealousy
just let it go

those are not the thoughts we are going to use to create this new day
this is a new day
and a new beginning

feel the air as it goes in and out of my body

its such a miracle
the way my body breathes itself
the air comes into the lungs
then it is sent over to the heart where it mingles with the blood

and this oxygenated blood is circulated
throughout my body
through all the veins and arteries
down to the tiniest little capillaries
bathing
and soaking
and nourishing
every cell in my body

i don’t even have to think about how to do this
there is an intelligence in my body
that takes care of it for me
it breathes my body
it beats my heart
it digests my food

this intelligence enables me to see
to walk
to hold things
to communicate with others
and to love

there are so many things in our lives we take for granted
we so seldom take time out
to be thankful and grateful
for the many miracles we have in our every day lives
and for the miracles we call our bodies

too often,
we only concentrate
on what we do not have

it blesses our future
to be thankful
for what we do have now

it opens the way for the good to flow in
in ever increasing abundance

let us begin with appreciating the very bed we have slept in all night
think about how warm and comfortable it has kept my body
while i slept and did my dreamwork
and refreshed my mind and my body
thank my bed

bless the furniture in my home
that comforts my body
and fulfills various necessary functions and conveniences

we all have a favorite piece of furniture
have i ever thanked it for being there for me?
do that now

then think of the miracle of the electric light in my home
how wonderful it is to have it
think of all the things i can use electricity for

remember our appliances are extensions of ourselves
and just as our relationships with other people are more wonderful when we are loving
so it is with the relationships we have with what we call “things”
appliances and automobiles
do not break down when we are in good space

so mentally thank my refrigerator for being there
for keeping my food fresh for me

thank my stove for helping me cook all those meals

now what else do i have in mt kitchen
that i can bless with love?
do that now

now think of that modern miracle called my bathroom
even kings and queens were not able to experience the conveniences we take for granted only a century ago
so bless the plumbing system
that so easily and simply removes the waste products

the hot and cold water that is so readily available to us
when we just turn a small knob
the convenience of being able to bathe our bodies
whenever we desire
these are all miracles

bless the radio i listen to
and the television that entertains me

let us be grateful for the telephone that brings us love
and communications with people everywhere

bless my mailbox
and the postal service
that helps us communicate with people all over this planet called earth
in just a few days time
it is a miracle, that we take for granted

let us be thankful for the air that we breathe
which is so precious to us
and we take so for granted

when we exhale
we don’t even think about where our next breath is coming from
yet this incredible power
that has created us
has given us enough breath to last as long as we shall live

let us be thankful for the sunshine
and the rain
without the rain
the vegetation would die
and we would have a barren planet
without beauty or food

let us be thankful for the wind that clears the skies
and the beauty of the MOONLIGHT

bless the vegetation that feeds and nourishes me
whenever i eat
bless the food with love
and i thank it for giving its life to nourish me

now think of the clothing i wear
think of the infinite choices we have with colors and fabrics
to adorn and comfort our bodies

if it is hot
we can choose light, cool clothing
if it is cold
we can choose warm cozy fabrics to comfort us

think of the miracle called walking
how wonderful it is to be able to get up
and to move to a new place by walking
thank my feet
for taking me so many places in the world

then look at all the other forms of transportation we have to choose from
and be thankful for em’
there are roller skates
and skateboards
and bicycles
and buses
and trucks
and automobiles
and trains
and airplanes
and ships that sail upon the waters
we have our choice
and we take them so for granted

how often have we been angry
when our automobile did not perform perfectly

bless our car with love
and be aware of the miracle it is
to get into this comfortable piece of machinery
that moves us about this planet
with very few manipulations
we move forward to our destination
it is one of our daily miracles

the next time our plane is delayed
release the tendency to be angry
instead, acknowledge the incredible ability
to be able to get into a little metal tube
that rises up in the sky
and swiftly takes us
to another place on this planet
it is one of our safest forms of transportation
and planes need love
just as we do

let our minds go over the various relationships we have in our lives
bless them all with love
and be thankful for them
THEY ARE ALL OUR TEACHERS

there are special things in my life
that i am thankful for
so take this moment
to let my mind
gently and lovingly
move throughout my life
past or present
giving thanks for places
people
or experiences
that either have been
or are now in our lives

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i am grateful:
everything
every soul
every experience
that led me
to this point in time
to this point in life

thank you
i love you

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it is such a wonderful feeling to be thankful
it prepares and opens the way
for more good to come into our lives

there is a power
and a presence
that resides within us
that is always there
to lead us
and to guide us
and make smooth and easy our ways

all we need to do
is to acknowledge this
and allow it to work for us

too often
when we awaken in the morning,
we leap out of bed
and try to push our way through life
controlling everything in sight
but that’s not how this power works

it’s like trying to control our breathing
and our heartbeat
or our digestion

if we try
all we do
is interfere and upset
the natural rhythm and flow
of our bodily processes

the best thing we can do for our body
is to feed it natural foods and beverages
to exercise in ways that are a pleasure to us
and to allow the intelligence in the body
to take care of all the rest

so it is with our lives
we think positive and loving thoughts
we forgive others
we are kind to ourselves mentally
and then we allow the intelligence of the universe
to take over
and create which is for our highest good
and greatest joy

this way
the process works smoothly

the power that created us
has given us the power
to create our lives
the power of choice and the thoughts we think

we have INFINITE choice
of that we can choose to think

these choices
create our future

if we choose hurt and anger and resentment
then we would just create more hurt and anger and resentment

IF WE WANT LOVE
WE MUST THINK LOVING THOUGHTS

IF WE WANT JOY
WE MUST THINK JOY

IF WE WANT TO EXPERIENCE PEACE AND CALM
WE MUST THINK PEACEFUL THOUGHTS

if we want prosperity
then we must open ourselves to it mentally

if we want to flow creatively
then we must acknowledge our ability

say this within mentally:
I AM AN OPEN CHANNEL FOR DIVINE IDEAS TO FLOW THROUGH ME
and the creativity of the universe
now expresses through me
that which i need to know
is revealed to me
and whatever i need
comes to me

I AM DIVINELY PROTECTED AND GUIDED
and my way is made smooth and easy

one of the things that create so many problems for us
is thoughts of anger and resentment and blame

so let us take a moment
before we actively begin our day
to consciously dissolve that from within our mind

please join in saying
i release all need
for anger or resentment or blame

i truly forgive
all those that need forgiving
and i forgive myself

i look forward to this day
with love and peace and joy
and anticipation
of abundant good
in every area

where ever i am going today
send love ahead to that place
if i am going shopping
then send love ahead of me
to the market
or the store
to the building itself
to all the merchandise in it
to all the people
to the customers
to the employees and the owners

know that i will be guided
to make the perfect selections that will benefit me the most
and both me and the store
will be blessed and prospered

do the same thing
if i am going to have something repaired
or if i’m going to see a lawyer
or a doctor
or a dentist

if i am going to work this morning
then do the same thing
send love ahead of me
to my place of business
to the building
to the people i work with
and the people i work for
to the furniture and equipment that i use
and to anything else i will come in contact with

let us declare together
that this is healthy
harmonious
loving
prosperous
and creative day for me
that it filled with joy
that i welcome change and adventure
that i bring new experiences and new people
into my life

if there is anyone
i expect to meet today
that irritates me in any way
just bless them with love
bless them with love
the love i send to them will return to me, MULTIPLIED
and i will benefit in ways
i cannot even imagine

whatever we give out
returns to us

as we go through this day
say over and over to ourselves
two or three hundred times is barely enough
i approve of myself
i approve of myself

say it with me right now ALOUD

i approve of myself
i approve of myself

i am worth loving
i am willing to change and learn a new way of expressing and experiencing life

i now begin to accept myself exactly as i am
i approve of myself

let this day be filled with love for me
let this day be peaceful and calm
let this day bring new insights, new understandings
let this day bring unexpected prosperity
let this be a day of great joy

this is my day
this is a GOOD day
this is a new day

THIS IS ONE OF THE BESTEST DAYS I HAVE EVER HAD

THIS IS A NEW BEGINNING
go forth
and enjoy
all that there is

i love you
and thank you for your daily guidance

take some nice, deep breaths now
feel the energy filling our bodies
open our eyes
STRETCHHHHHHHH
get up

go forth and enjoy it ALL ❤

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life
oh what a funnny thing
how could i have ever imagined
to be where i am
in life
physcially
and mentally
four years of transformation

better than best
my wise besto once told me
about the things the universe can bring
no doubt
better than my wildest dreams
and its with my minds shift
to appreciate all that was already surrounding me

i feel so lucky
so grateful
i wake up with the biggest smile
every single morning
how could i have lived life
not seeing all the things
not appreciating all the relationships
its made my third eye shine

rawr
i know im getting mushy
but serious
what the fuck
how can anyone be as lucky as me

still alive after all the candies and whites
even more optimistic than ever before with this life’s roller coaster
hahahahahahhaha
oh yeah
powerful mind

thirty feels good already
today i rely on myself
to bring forth the most happiness
one year difference
how amazing
self love journey
keep on going

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
peeeeeeeeeeee
dooooooooo

fa la la la la la la la

expanding

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expanding infinitely
we paused and said out loud uninamously
interesting
so many soul mates
i am too lucky
platonic chivalry i assume

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just close your lips
follow my lead
you can be trained
but i don’t know if im into it
you’re cute
stay unbreakable

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the honest
the wild
the crazy
the kink

i am pretty excited
can’t wait to meet you too
too intrigued
can hardly contain

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as for you you little punk
i got you
for some reason
deep down inside
i want to take care and nurture you
i want to lick your wounds
i want to hold you

i can do all that
with no emotions attached
it’s quite cool, isn’t it

your charms
your face
your words
all helped me on this new road
and i thank you

can’t wait to play again
you sex
you kiss
you lick

b i t e m e h a r d e r

snap

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snapped back to reality

truth
so much truth
lots to swallow

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tuning in for the best now
only the best
because I deserve the best

the best is around the corner

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relaxed day
lazy
bummin
rolling around

feeling sexy
wolfie from down under
just teasing
too many miles away

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single awareness week
A L R I G H T
im ready boo

my head
my life
my voice

h i p h i p h o o r a y

blow

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blow my mind
or better
blow yours
with a shotgun
no guts left

its my own problem
sick in the in
unable to express
any bit of e m o t i o n
killing off mine
just not somebody new

sinking cells
sunken all the way
what was it used to be
blurry so cannot be
fuck me
how

this shitting cycle
ugh unable to breathe

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O I N K
adventure time one of my third
white gurl crazy
that slice of bacon
shakin his thang
all laughs

droplets of missing you

F I T
popo airforce lion
too much self love
so much narcissism
different kind of crowd
interesting products
all competes
lines
different world

yummilicious hot
melt in your mouth

unwind

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too much time to think

spinning rut
spiral of overthinking

close one eye
shut down my mind

twirling out of control
filling the void with garbage
not better
almost disgusting
the internet
these communications
wipe them off

can i be normal now?
over being emo

p l a y d e a d

inimical

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n o t

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admitting feelings
hard hard thing
surprising feeling
unimaginary

smiles and giggles and brights and more
from your lips to your sternum down to your toes
licking every inch of my skin
holding on that time
is it no more?

get out of my head
driving me crazy
quite frankly
hung over the edge I feel
thus why
all these randoms
the net to break my fall

blehh x x

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what falling in love is
ever get to experience me that
that feeling of longing
for more than the physical being

that smile
that twinkle
truly happy for you

shining
shimmering
splendid

J A H

urge

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strange sudden overflowing

urge to know
urge to discover
urge to open
urge to linger

what to do with all this urge
where to set it
how to deal with it

many unanswers
swiveling in my helpless mind

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read . . . so easily

how . . . did you manage to see

felt . . . magnetic connection

scared . . . too close to heart

attracted . . . absurdity

pulls . . . insanely

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i feel tangled in you
still and over and again
lucky charm, you say
then can you really show me?

i am just waiting

i am no longer approaching

too much pain
too much uncertainty
too much unsubstance

at the stop
looking over my shoulder
the shadows flashes

ifs
whats
maybes
indefinitely

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drop its
R E focus
goals in stone

k e e p on g o i n g

riveting

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interesting perspective
maybe that’s what i need

honest it feels whole
hybrid connection
is it real?
beyond intrigued
devilish eyes
normality out the window
attracted to the damage
is it a trap?
oh but i am willing
so, so willing
to get tied up in your twisted web

odd, i know

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interestingly eager
rachet self proclaiming male
what the heck, i thought
charming no doubt
but what about
means well
easy flow
no pressure

up in the air
decisions decisions decisions

may be cracked
to be continued..

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a g a i n . . .

you wrinkle my sheets
you crinkle my heart

who what when where why

so many questions
too many questions
constantly overflowing
unexpressed
bottled up inside

t a n g l e d i n y o u

your finger tips
your breaths
your attentiveness
your life

i am an addict
overdose me

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blinded
faded

i see what i need to chase
i know what i have to do
missing that push

tasks
missions
must complete

e a r n e d not g i v e n

I DO GIVE A fUCK

gear up

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push
fight
purpose

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all that we are
that glitz and tack
don’t belong
much better
we deserve our own
our rep
our turn of the era

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I AM GOING TO DO IT

no regrets
cannot stop
no longer an option to pause
this is real
so fucking real
got to fight
for my basic right

i cannot go back
that saran wrapped life
glass house shelter
seeing everything
yet numbed completely

pick myself up bit by bit
its just in the wrong
i promise it is temporary
align everything up
there is a light
falsely but surely
i can almost smell the air from the other side

it is perfect
it is freedom
it is my own

can hardly wait

BUT FIRST,
need to put in the works

not going to be easy
challenges and obstacles
road to run them over

g o t s i t

sparks

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in the darkest form
brightened from behind
its slight
its shy
foreground hides
background shines
and it all collides

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fight for me
unfiltered
most vulnerable state
never tried
new, i guess
cherish and in the moment
luckiness is set
happy state
hump overcomed
too deep
too ecstasy

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honest
i am glad
that circle
defines chemical error
useless
same shit different day
all talk
meaningless
from a distance
best spot i pick
good show
real life comedy
round in circles
feel bad for you especially
tricked my sympathy
no longer i care
have fun
haha

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new mood
refreshed
leave the past behind
get on with my life
too excited

p r e s s P L A Y

cant

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shake this feeling
feeling so, so off
night to morning
morning to night
cant get a break
what the fuck is wrong
is everything ok?
from what is around me
but what is this feeling

ugh
i cannot breathe

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o8: i4

i overcame

i understand

i embrace our existence
i thank you for this new realm of intimacy
i expect no more
i am playing on my terms
i seek you
i enjoy our moments

whatever comes will come
let go of this overbearing control
twist and turning in my helpless mind
give it up

I am a divine being of light. I am peaceful, protected and secure.

my best interests
supported by the highest of beings
shine through

be the best version
be understanding
be compassionate to myself

self approval
self love
self acceptance

afterall

I A M I