paper plane

 
how must you ache
i understand
at least you have me
i promise to make it
to make your sacrifices worth it

just a week
easily spared
meanings of gold

tears
aching for you
that selfish fucker
cannot describe
absolutely speechless

just do
at least
prove the least

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fifth day
twenty eighth day
two hundred eighty eighth day

two zero one six
no boys
no c o c a i n e

my numbers
little goals
every second that ticks
all the credit is mine
i’ve done it now

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warped between thirteen and fourteen
first segment of the year
high and up above
with my golden wings
accelerating through with ease

a student to the earth
a lover to self fellow beings
a giver returning blessings
a master to focused thoughts

cannot lie
cannot say i am not greedy
i want it all
i want to feel it all
i want to embrace all of it

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vision

layers
my own space
rustic stories
originality
splashes of colour

opening my eye
seek standing still
in the moment
combination of the senses
product of my membrane

touch down
creatively flowing
enjoying the process
little pranks of le beloved mercury
laughing it off
retracing my thoughts

tradition and rules
research and decompose
out of the box i say
no box can contain this
i grow
expansion is due

looking forward
delighted to grasp
this future of mine
ready to fight relentlessly
for my own recognition

M I N E

twinkle

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tinkle?
no, twinkle
but w h e r e ?
in your eyes
flickering
dimming
closing.

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bumps
humps
not feeling my best

emotion?
physical?
psychological?
spiritual?

unfulfilled

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loyalty comes first
if you can’t swear your loyalty
than move on pretty please

don’t waste my time
don’t waste my energy

i really do see what you do
not the only one
but you’re not going to fool me
honestly
truthfully

y o u s u c k
wish he can see

tick tick
tock tock

o v e r

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in the midst of all this complaining chaos
creativity is at its best
literally able to switch my thoughts
inspired by all that surrounds me

visually focused

the crave to create
itching in my bones

(want to ) see
(need to ) capture
(learn to ) draw
(splatter the ) paint
(time to ) develop
(fight for ) new experience
(unblock ) my own limitations

ideas rolling in
let’s get started asap, shall we?

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the big o
not satisfied
take me higher

– – – –

jaja
b e s t V E R S I O N

incendiary

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unintentional
abrupt
waves and waves
nonstop
how to stop
where to end

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purging
unready
will i truly ever be
erase

– – – –

blah
so many thoughts
so few words

can’t i stay right
just for a night

blocked
blinded from the mind

f u c k

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screams of silence
swallowed breath by breath
puzzled by all that connects us

drive
goals
dreams
life

chicken or egg

inner struggle
life of an abuser
must go on for how much long
long thick and juicy
that’s what she said
unfinished

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you don’t know me
because
i don’t even know who you’re trying to get to know
one day i am this
the next i am that
i can be your fucking soul mate
also capable of becoming your worst nightmare
shall we play

nah
to be really honest

no time
no cells
no interest

o h
h a w t
d a m n n