twinkle

January 18, 2015January 18, 2015 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

tinkle?
no, twinkle
but w h e r e ?
in your eyes
flickering
dimming
closing.

– – – –

bumps
humps
not feeling my best

emotion?
physical?
psychological?
spiritual?

unfulfilled

– – – –

loyalty comes first
if you can’t swear your loyalty
than move on pretty please

don’t waste my time
don’t waste my energy

i really do see what you do
not the only one
but you’re not going to fool me
honestly
truthfully

y o u s u c k
wish he can see

tick tick
tock tock

o v e r

– – – –

in the midst of all this complaining chaos
creativity is at its best
literally able to switch my thoughts
inspired by all that surrounds me

visually focused

the crave to create
itching in my bones

(want to ) see
(need to ) capture
(learn to ) draw
(splatter the ) paint
(time to ) develop
(fight for ) new experience
(unblock ) my own limitations

ideas rolling in
let’s get started asap, shall we?

– – – –

the big o
not satisfied
take me higher

– – – –

jaja
b e s t V E R S I O N

shark

January 14, 2015 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

WHERE M E O W ?
other half
incomplete heart
sit in my bed
experiencing feelings
feeling emotions

missing something
cannot quite steady my mind

get the ball rolling
. . . j u s t k e e p r o l l i n g

– – – –

oh wonder
current
double track
high & low

diminishing
lack of emotion
will i ever
be the same?

– – – –

three sides
perfect triangle
the only color

fill it
shape it
needle it

permanent
for life

– – – –

G O T i t ?

L

January 11, 2015January 12, 2015 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

future
b e r l i n
wonderlust
ultimate
c o l l i d e d s o u l s

doing it all

– – – –

cold hard grip
inverted slow exhales

crazy diamond
nauseous scorpion
wakey wakey firefly
t i n k e r w h a t

m o v e s
D R E A M S mmhmm

– – – –

cutoff
goodbye
don’t miss you
and you
and you
and you, too.

D L T

– – – –

whispers and moans
cross donzo
different level
different ways

un
deux
trois
quatre

ooze
squeeze
restirct
xxx

it feels tastes so yummy
envision it all
trip your mouth
eat up your mind

s e x
&
d r o g u e s

isolate

January 4, 2015 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

this feeling
this vibe
this environment
this noise
this crowd
this familiarity
this sound
this sight
. . . so strange

O I

weird thoughts
weird feelings
longing for something
i n d e s c r i b a b l e

a closeness
a touch
a look
a warmth
to understand
OR NOT
whatever

not fighting
not searching
not trying
not rewinding
not expecting

surrender
re surrender
H O W
i n e e d h e l p

L O S T
might be the word I’m thinking
but unwilling to admit

wish i could leave
right meow
don’t see a purpose
time wasting

OKA Y
> > > > stop

restart

manifest positivity
focus on connecting
mind over matter

D O i t I C A N

two zero one five

January 3, 2015January 4, 2015 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

new
dejavu
not quite
b u t
definitely somewhat white
near far
nowhere you are
deep within me
no substance to think

fog
Blurred
life is a hurricane
twirling up
to the top
no pause no pause

life’s odd
expect the unexpected
no case in life

where to go now
what to do here
so many options
so many chances

r e s o l u t i o n s
> listen
> active
> german
> mindful
> present
> no regrets
> no fear
t a k e e v e r y c h a n c e

little big handsome glover
where you at
shy cutie
my favorite type
i dig
chance meet
anticipate next
new looker
love discoveries

life
new year
should be wiser
would be wiser
do not rush
think twice
think thrice
what rice

bars
favorite
if I had a choice
be on that white day and night
choice
unsober
i dig
but not a good way
mixology
of all kinds
chemistry & emotions

creamy
hard
sticky
crave
lick
swirl
rhythm

U G H

black black heart

December 29, 2014December 29, 2014 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

that intimate
that gooey
that shade

i gift to you
times two

– – – –

dizzo
swimming in white
floato
spinning in ty
licko
sucking in twice

– – – –

shallow thoughts
simple words
shrinking intelligence
swallow it down

– – – –

i said no
surprised myself
purposeless wasting stamina
believe i am strong
but i really am
you see?

c o u n t d o w n

bang bang

December 28, 2014December 29, 2014 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

all over you

random act of kindness
enjoy
one time special kind of deal
g a g g a g g a g
nice
lick you not

– – – –

guided
✌️

kiss slowly, laugh insanely, live truly, forgive quickly.

hohoho

December 26, 2014December 28, 2014 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

maison michel
M O T H E R d a u g h t e r
matching
together forever

– – – –

h o l l y j o l l y

thankful for my family
holiday everyday
s p o i l e d

custom monogram case
dollah dollah beels yall
picasso-to-be kit + sex shades
date with elphaba & glinda in hollywood
unthoughtout credits

– – – –

i can kind of see
mildly visible
your withdrawal
your troubles

efforts appreciated
continuous forms of communication

much to prove
tolerable mr right meow
something mysterious
still intriguing

– – – –

no bs
testing my limits
attracted
can i bi?
weirdly pushy
honest
potentially yummy

c h a n c e ?

– – – –

w i t t l e o n e
long awaited plans
along for the ride
i likey
c o n q u e s t

i aint going no where
show and tell

p o s s i b l y . . . .
too little too late

– – – –

need isolation
need space
need rediscovery
need filler
need cells
need white+

R E f u c k i n g S E T
get ready for the end of a new beginning

its coming

– – – –

you’ve been great
2 0 1 4

prep

December 25, 2014December 28, 2014 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

hours and hours
days and days
weeks and weeks
e v e n months and months

~~bleh~~

i am jolly
in the spirit, even
can’t help but feel
a twinkle of dissatisfaction

. . . and then what?

– – – –

new project
i8
yeah
no biggie
FUCK YOU
made my year
bestestestestestestttt

– – – –

p r e s e n t p r e s e n t s
ready?

blocked

December 18, 2014 ~ alice's playground ~ Leave a comment

sick
of change of plans
changing minds
restless decision making
a or b fuck no option c

b l o c k a g e
brain cells stopped at the red
continuously reminded to halt by some white
in this moment
i need clarity
i need not insanity
i need not anyone but myself

words of a lone wolf
u n s u r e
yeah that’s right
HUH
self conflicting irony at its best
best in me
me in best
f u d g e z e f a c e

nonsense
anti anxiety
so much space

Z E N
where art thou
are you within arm’s reach
are you sailing away
are you upside down flying
are you taking off on a rocket ship
take me with you

barred
i love this feeling
sick

d e e p w h i t e s e a