less naive
clearer sight

– – – –

obligatory fun
self worth gambles
thoroughly experienced
destination aborted

being here
identity almost lost
completely
fallen apart
lowest of the low
unrecognizable
who is this
she who is not i

habitual
level of self
jumped over the roof
splat
pieces
picking it ups
slowly
surely

falls apart
lets go
to integrate even better version
life mission
some unfinished cracks
other resealed cracks
outflows aspects untouched

– – – –

twelve days

the test run intended runned

two best friends
best partners in crime
miles around miles in the city
chasing notes
experiences of all kinds of sort

one new great fucking friend
inspiring in so many ways
engraving in me the bravery of motherhood
the love of a mother
that deep
that strong
that unconditional
utmost survivor
soul connection
solely made this trip the best ever
forever cherished
thank the universe completely
can’t wait to be reunited

twelve days

countless matches
three encounters
attraction to not usual mutual

full run of exchanges
a head twirling experience
half way did not knock homerun
no explanation
so much weird similarities
contrast in cyber exchanges
completely odd
still confused
got my last words out just now
settled
unexpected response
best kind of surprise
kind of over the top happies right now
spazzing inside
can it be real
feelings it might?
can’t actually deal at the moment
the least
new friend check

seventh
mysterious ski mask man
extreme gamble
lucky strike
southern giant gentleman
three amazing nights of kisses
two amazing nights of play
kind of really in sync
passionately casual
intimately connected
first twice since my lucky charm
no lingering feelings
upfront and cherishing
will definitely not be the last time ever
stay in touch check

– – – –

seven days
my free beautiful stallion
ups and downs
cheese on rice
bang for our buck

side by side beds
new intimacy levels
all jokes
nonstop reminiscing of black outs
wild baby boo

assured my loyalty
want to be that reflective being
want you to see the best of you through me
want nothing but the best for you
best experiences
best decisions
best geegees
another soul mate stamped and sealed

running through town
minority feeling
shitty sucks eat shit trumpers

notes exploring
tunes to our soul
this vibe
this life
this moment
wouldn’t trade it

adventure
#ihateyousomuch
#butterhalf
lucky you
fuckyes

– – – –

what is fucking life
this is the fucking life
i am living life

my life
my playground
some kind of high

ready to get back to reality
actual love of returning
tangible life that is real
goals and structure and olds

this city
rooted my familiarity
city to live with no restraints
no regrets
experiences of memories
all grows with parts of me
so grateful
thank you universe

can’t wait to be
h o m e

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