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You can have anything you want if you are willing to give up the belief that you can’t have it. -Robert Anthony

again,
the Five Minute Journal gets it

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feeling really uninspired
stopped seeing things
stopped envisioning dreams
mid air drifting
directionless

seeking materialistic
again, this void
rein in this uncontrollable beast
unstable
too much to handle

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see the good
feel the good
be the good

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connect
web of
seven nation army

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the whites kicking in
mann this is what i need
a little white to my life
a little color to spare

lights dimming
i feel my thoughts turning
i really just need to embrace
this is much greater than
flatlined with no ups or downs

need to push
i need a push
push me,
please

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okay
i feel back

b a

enticed

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she comes and she goes..
the world is hers to explore.

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the world is my playground
wanting you to join
our colliding bodies
rhythmatiically in sync
savoring every inch of you
feeling you filling me
push and pull
sighs and moans
in my fantasy there you’ll be
tracing my scars with your fingertips
loving me ever so tenderly

“i can never get enough” you said
my thoughts exactly

senses overload
drawn into your gaze

every moment
every movement
every word
every interaction

i cannot control my feelings
i need you
if only…

g l o w

fellow

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double crossed
physical low
mental high
resobertizing
tip top state

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polaroid jello
loopy round and round
courageous start
turbulant journey
irratical organization
overcharged emotions
or better, lack thereof
complete flatlined at surprising times
BUT
here i stand, am, complete
push it
keep em’ coming

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jah
the waiting

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fellow feeling
wonderful being
conjuring up a space of our own
gliding through the tunes
hearing what i hear
playing in sync

the meledy jammin’
the words relating
the bodies spinning
the minds awakening

explained in words
sought out the truth
i sighed to discover
ultimately absolute

dahh
falala
delirious
the least, experience
uncommon sense
sense of irratibility
feeling of animated beings
we are sick fucks
and guess what
we own this moment

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dont try too hard
hope youre happy
words of likes
warmth to my heart
are you frontin’
untrusting being
just oepn
live
go with the flow
shake it off
free your mind
flashes of color
you’ll never know unless you try
reminder from him
questioned with
how can someone try hard at not trying
darling the answer is clear
just wait
let me solve your confusion
one of a kinds
weirdos
how did we cross paths
still unreal
jepordizing my sanity
or whats left, anyway

g a m e .

closure

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deep within

i wish there was more i can do
but i understand
it is your fight
your solo battle
wish i can help you like the way you helped me
you stubborn narcissist
wish you can see
right beside you there i will be

sending you my love
always

you know where to find me.

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next chapter
washed away
chills of excitement
in place
almost time
can’t hold me back

L I F E

expanding

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expanding infinitely
we paused and said out loud uninamously
interesting
so many soul mates
i am too lucky
platonic chivalry i assume

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just close your lips
follow my lead
you can be trained
but i don’t know if im into it
you’re cute
stay unbreakable

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the honest
the wild
the crazy
the kink

i am pretty excited
can’t wait to meet you too
too intrigued
can hardly contain

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as for you you little punk
i got you
for some reason
deep down inside
i want to take care and nurture you
i want to lick your wounds
i want to hold you

i can do all that
with no emotions attached
it’s quite cool, isn’t it

your charms
your face
your words
all helped me on this new road
and i thank you

can’t wait to play again
you sex
you kiss
you lick

b i t e m e h a r d e r

snap

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snapped back to reality

truth
so much truth
lots to swallow

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tuning in for the best now
only the best
because I deserve the best

the best is around the corner

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relaxed day
lazy
bummin
rolling around

feeling sexy
wolfie from down under
just teasing
too many miles away

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single awareness week
A L R I G H T
im ready boo

my head
my life
my voice

h i p h i p h o o r a y

blow

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blow my mind
or better
blow yours
with a shotgun
no guts left

its my own problem
sick in the in
unable to express
any bit of e m o t i o n
killing off mine
just not somebody new

sinking cells
sunken all the way
what was it used to be
blurry so cannot be
fuck me
how

this shitting cycle
ugh unable to breathe

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O I N K
adventure time one of my third
white gurl crazy
that slice of bacon
shakin his thang
all laughs

droplets of missing you

F I T
popo airforce lion
too much self love
so much narcissism
different kind of crowd
interesting products
all competes
lines
different world

yummilicious hot
melt in your mouth

unwind

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too much time to think

spinning rut
spiral of overthinking

close one eye
shut down my mind

twirling out of control
filling the void with garbage
not better
almost disgusting
the internet
these communications
wipe them off

can i be normal now?
over being emo

p l a y d e a d

inimical

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n o t

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admitting feelings
hard hard thing
surprising feeling
unimaginary

smiles and giggles and brights and more
from your lips to your sternum down to your toes
licking every inch of my skin
holding on that time
is it no more?

get out of my head
driving me crazy
quite frankly
hung over the edge I feel
thus why
all these randoms
the net to break my fall

blehh x x

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what falling in love is
ever get to experience me that
that feeling of longing
for more than the physical being

that smile
that twinkle
truly happy for you

shining
shimmering
splendid

J A H

urge

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strange sudden overflowing

urge to know
urge to discover
urge to open
urge to linger

what to do with all this urge
where to set it
how to deal with it

many unanswers
swiveling in my helpless mind

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read . . . so easily

how . . . did you manage to see

felt . . . magnetic connection

scared . . . too close to heart

attracted . . . absurdity

pulls . . . insanely

– – – –

i feel tangled in you
still and over and again
lucky charm, you say
then can you really show me?

i am just waiting

i am no longer approaching

too much pain
too much uncertainty
too much unsubstance

at the stop
looking over my shoulder
the shadows flashes

ifs
whats
maybes
indefinitely

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drop its
R E focus
goals in stone

k e e p on g o i n g