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don’t say no
no doors closed
all roads opened
the pick of the world

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the inevitable
not so bad actually
facing it soberly
ace of clubs it shuts

karmic
i owe you
if this is all
praise the lord
farewell can easily be bid

neptune
the fantasy to you
rose colored goggles
can’t see me for who i am
i can see that
if not even purposely driven
not sure
i assumed of more pull
be it, let go

pluto
want to lure you in
want the restriction
want you to wear your heart for me
if the chance
i shall conquer
i seldomly swear

three times the fun
waits the game
hope to cross paths again
i am grateful
good riddance to you for now

xoxo

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treasure map
so surreal
is this really happening
two years later
long overdue
wonder what’s in store
honest no game
in it just for the fun
perfect aesthetics
look forward to
touch, feel, play
don’t tease
for real
come inside
i am ready

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the accent
the gentleman
completely wowed
expecting fuckboy nonetheless
tomorrows the night
apologize for the wait
best version is worth it
pinky promised

good asset
toy i deem

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creative space
talents the bore
what is the motive
the green?
the booze?
the women?
the passion?
how to assume ones
unsure
who cares
the glitz and glamour
always replaced
one after another
the sooner you look
the clearer it becomes
transparent

melodic
dark
grunge

what does that all embody?
what is everyone chasing?
what glosses these glasses?
dream chasing money back guarantee?
questions questions questions
up close and personal
negatively positive spaces

problem child
my muse
my inspiration
opening my eyes
growing visuals
love it
embrace it

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after thoughts
actual genuine
facade to impress the glam
goofy goody what
going under
blown up it may be
best of luck to you

pretty face
layered presentation
yet to puzzle
open to create
present more
further
we shall see

name necklace
bid farewell
five years
tear
fuck my life
carelessnesssssss

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tucking the rest of the year up
managing the thoughts carefully
thank all that not belong
welcome all ye positive and bright

focusing on this being
the being of self
the beings of my space

make it full
make it passion
make it shine
make it completely mine

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which which
L O VE

rainbow

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somewhere
over that
over that hump
i am

sounds of the ocean
waves of the atlantic
the best vibes
with my one and only

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going along
some kinds of fun
wazing through crowds
experiencing visual forms
creative lives
we us then
sacred works of all
interconnected through this platform
free expression
venus’s the limit
get on that

boxes of cubicles
heart and souls
all bits of brain juice
splashes of the taints
glossy over that source of boom

vibrance
minimal
shapes
contrast
influenced
light up
steel works of art
art that tells of ones deepest secrets

its that
that’s amazing
that outlet

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no matter if
you are great
it shall be your loss
if and maybe why
not sure what to think
calming myself
reeling my thoughts in
not worth it really
too much to explore
can’t hold on to your spot
see how it plays
numbered days
blerch

what can you offer me
besides that sense of security
that tall glass of eye candy
nothing else really
adventure…eh
love…eh
sex…hmm
exactly
so there is much to be proven
until then
don’t get too comfortable boo
get ready for a fight
prize of your life
mm okay thanks bye

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treasure map
have you finally gathered snack and supplies
hunting in that city of ours
first ever exchange

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big ol’ grey cloud
what are you up to
What are you thinking
what do you do
my curiosity gets the best of me
i know there’s warnings
shall tread carefully
arms length
don’t mind the fire
hope not to get burned
reveal yeself!

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i reminisce
for the thousandth time i swear
the last tangle
fitting so perfectly in yours
your fingertips traced over my skin
marking itself ever so familiarly
playing the keys to the tunes of my soul
the touch of magic
you have

i fucking miss
the thought of you
the texts of you
the smiles of you
the smell of you
lingering
never forgotten
connected through the cloud of sound
forever and more

lost in you no longer
i should be glad
a tad i guess
sanity > it all

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cheerio proposal
i know what you want
i am unable to fulfill that position right now
my bad for peeling the old wound
its truly unfair
my head clearly knows
how perfect you’d treat me
unready for that
that step is big
too big for us at the moment
my apologies

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nineteen months
can it be?
anticipating
might be light and fun
comfort at the least
see ya thursday!

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so much media
too much
too fucking much
someone something somewhere
telling you
who to be
what to think
no room for self growth

UGH

i know the inevitable
i don’t want to complain
i can’t say i am completely free of

BUT F U C K

how can i avoid
take the first steps of my path
completely out of the box
never the first
can it be
born dis da hipsters
weird loop
unsolvable loop
the only one i am responsible for is
me, myself and i

center and stand tall
do my best
live my life
let all else flow on

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all these distractions
all these males
just need to remind myself
of the one criteria

you must be passionate about me

no passion
no go
not settling for anything less
oh, the ease
i got this
reminded!

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keep reading
keep praticing
that unconditional love
keep searching
keep experiencing

all the pieces falling together
all once so broken
falling back together so perfectly

believe in me
take me higher
i love this life
i love my life

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twinsie
matching
all day
all night

this soul twin of mine
unlike any other i have met
her individuality
leads me gently to inspire me
gives me space to grow into my own
some sort of opposites
but we work
hey
like magic on ice
no sense but what sense to life really

this trip
we made it our own
we made it one of the bests
another city to add to the books
so many more adventures to come

the best duo
you’ve got to show me love
pillow fights
i got handled
snapchat noobies
natural conversationalists
instant moments
imperfectly perfect moments
all the moments
recorded
remembered

woo
you’s it

a i n i

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round and round
we go
will i catch up to love
i could never tell

come
come on
come all

oh come take my hand
so high
too high at this playground of mine

all fun and games
til one falls in love
you’ve already bought the ticket
no turning back now

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master of time
reconfirmed
sexy hands
that natural vibe
so free flowing
feels really nice
so much giggles
we look nice

pretty darn sexy
in your arms i feel
pretty darn enticed
within your aura don’t you know

i like
attracted
buckle up
ride

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whites
the purest
most innocent

want to show you the world
want to hold your hand to explore

my proposal
best kind of experience
hope you will be on board

i wana guide you
i wana play you
i wana feel you

don’t resist
trust me and lets go

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twisted noon
feelings fading
maybe never
sigh

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big ole grey cloud
tis’ you
i felt
intuition on fleek
not about that life
all kinds of hidden agendas
not down to play
no game
boohoo
to find what you’re looking for
might take a weeeeee big longer
so long precious
le void you filled
appreciated

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new little life
year of change
grateful for it all
how big changes you’ll bring
i love you already
you little baby boo
get bigger safe and sound
await your arrival
welcome to this world

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countless days of sobriety
countless days of happiness
so fucking clear
it all

free to dream
free to do
free to create
nothing to stop me now

refocus
re-read
one more month of cruising
before speeding straight into life
this life
amazing it has been

i love
i laugh
i live

T H A N K F U L

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life
what is

THIS IS

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so hard to put these feels into words
this amazingness
awesomely out of this world
almost out of body
insanely unreal
experience to the say the least

from the glance of my reflection in his eyes
to my reflection in all my recent encounters

i see ME
the me i am destined to be

how fucking sick
to get here
not even in twelve months time
super powers i must possess
LOL
just keeeeeding

priorities straight
fights no more
i am so sure
one hundred percent
no need to bicker for acknowledgement
the result is inside
shining outwardly

amongst every contact
exuding the best
acceptance of all
understanding perspective

after all, we are just human
fighting for our own
searching for our light
exploring for our home

the home in ourselves
the home in our other half
the home in our family
the home in our love

only the beginning
the beginning of my next journey
i can hardly contain the excitement
lots of preparation
last week to subdue
finish with a bang bang sha bang
2 0 1 5
you’ve been so good to me
i fucking

L O V E

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better each other
companionship
the sexiest kind
to grow
no games
be direct
life goals
extreme funs
endeavoring sights
unstoppable giggles
is what

c l e a r m i n d

no rush
stay strong
two thirds to go
time will tell

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intrigued by this
out of left field i say
building this odd connection
between this many miles apart
who wouldve thought
story sharing
pictures and greetings
its weird
can’t help but feel
probability tis big giant cloud?
i don’t know
but i will know

nice atm

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little trinkets
little flashbacks
always missing
m y l i t t l e p u n k
one and only lucky charm

how are you
how have you been
how are you eating
how have you slept

may life bring you nothing but the best
you deserve the best
if not the best of the best
know you’ll always get up so do your best
hold you hand, i wish
look forward to the next life with you
i think i love you always
always the best

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flew by it went
seven days down
explored the cities
mini me of mine

sick lines and structures
rigid culture and traditions
pretties nails and shizz
made yummies sushi and rice
heaven made bar be que we devoured
the hearts to hearts i cherish
blessing may it be at times
great memories for life

T O K Y I O O O DES

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people come
people go
passing by
without a hold

staring into the landscape
aligned to perfection
unreal almost
glimpse of reflections
background fading
focused silhouettes
open imagination

beings
uniques
varieties
left
walks
right
glides

on and on with life

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rush less
savor and embrace
each moment
each smile
each person
each connection

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twist i wonder
forever thoughts
cant stop listening
perfect lyrics

wildest dreams
saw the end as it begins
this is going to take me down
i surrender whole heartedly
under one condition
remember to remember me

goodly normal but wild
the shape of your dreams
unbelievable chance
said your eyes
you’re my chosen one
stop doubting that

if i could go back
i would say a few more things
i would hold on a few moments longer
like it could be the last time ever
which could be the case it seems
that thought alone chokes me up
here’s hoping
tall glass of noon
happily ever after thoughts
to the next encounter, cheers

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harder to depict
one so close to home
minimizing unrealistic holds
of something that might not come to be
need to remain optimistic
not shooting for the moon
staying grounded
a first
best kind of norm
what i dreamed of for myself
at the start of this journey
could it be
can it be
so many possibilities
ugh
but stop
be patient
trust
flow… it goes

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my hearts
boys to men
these memories
never enough time

how many chances does one get
to give and receive so much
l o v e
h a p p i n e s s
how lucky do i completely feel
to be a part of their lives
for them to be a part of mine

instant moments
creative spirits
space exploration
top security
casa di sexy diablos
diabloettes
eye opening
nonstop enjoyment

unexpected attraction
who is she i questioned
it is who she knows herself
answered the foolishly wise
lightbulb
of course
that’s what it is
fully aware
i strive
constellation
imprinted in my mind
i will be back

s q u a d
rebond completion
next adventures in the works
time may fly
but we will never change
#ifweevermeetagain
always surely completely

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feels
in my veins
hitting the boiling point
so much urge
oozing out of each cell
can’t stop looking
can’t stop exploring
can’t stop
fucking amazing

s i m p l y

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say it
wear it
dream it
scream it

one more time
backwards
e c i l a
upside down
what does it
who says it
whoever unriddles this shall be mine

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feeling blindly
blinding feeling

wait

i mean

feeling blinding
overwhelming feelings
not so sure
of these waves of emotions
the twist especially
unexplainable
out of the norm

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as if

what if

to if

if has lost its meaning

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trust is the theme
trust in the universe
trust in life
trust in me, most importantly

trust the experiences
trust the significance of events
trust the feelings
T R U S T

working on it 👍🏼

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new city
first for my physical body
cant say for my deja vu’s
never gets old

altitude
longitude
atmospheric differences
always one of a kind

feeling lucky
feeling happy
feeling all the good stuff

e X c i t e m e n t

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sore cheeks
endless laughters
how lucky
am i

the journeys the thing
so i have realized
no longer obsessing
that perfectionist mentality
suppressing completely
go with the flow
let life happen

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one week later
got my stomach twisted
i cringe at the distance
wonder if thats your feelings too

unexpected
how much yellow
my little big giant
one nights encounter
got me smirking all day long
the mark
the jokes
the sensations
the eyes
the music
all so close
yet so far

the first time to say
completion of effort
#noregrets
invited and waiting

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master of time pieces
how interesting

can’t say yet
shhhh
be patient
unjinx please

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four hundred miles up
reunited with my hearts
long overdue

bao
how time flies
never have i ever
experience such soul filling words
filling soul experiences
my best friend, i can say

five years ago
this state we stand
undoubtly identified
craziest
out of control
d o w n duo
look at us now
this fascination
this journey of life
hand in hand
taking over the aesthetics of life

di
half of our lives
fourteen rounds of three hundred sixties
a different side
a different connection
unconditional love
the best kind of love
ever so grateful
for half of one of the bests
missing other half
reunion plans, in the works
fingers crossed

i miss already

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ten days countdown
soaring higher and beyond
got so many plans ahead
can’t stop won’t stop
my playground

l i m i t l e s s

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the secret
it seems

perfect balance?

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red queen’s race no more

finding my truth
i seek and i shall find

evolving

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a b c s
stuck in my head
tug of war
can’t seem to lure it out

what the flow
with what flow
the usual
would
be
but why

analyze
no outer substance
not a single milligram
all day

not here right meow
please try again tomorrow

b e e p

abstemious

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addiction, under control
moderately syncing
balancing it all

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the final goodbye 🍀💚
i cherish forever and more
none but the best wishes

being fully without
beats waves of warptwerkhuhwhatyeah
completely lost in time
ten months front line combat day and night
been. in. through.
im alright
could get used to
the calmest goodbye

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HIGH ON LIFE

then
dwelled on the neg

now
i magnetize
all that is good
all that is amazing

ridiculous shift
utterly surreal
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motherfuckin’ a l i c e i s b a c k