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oceyes

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not alone
semi circle army
all aides
sustaining my lucky streak

nurturing warm soul i’ve never had
all preciousness
completely grateful
all this

coming true

– – – –

being true to self
in the moment
say what i want to say
do what i want to do
Y A S

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Yemaya

strange clouds fragments of glory
envisioning glimmering stars of a story
commanding you,
amongst the goddesses of the water

with your laughter
the storm you disarm
with your kind word
you return the calm

the breeze of the east brings you gentle life
Goddess of the sea and the living waters

your cheek kisses the beautiful moon
with majesty and stars it filled your mind
the waves carry the beautiful roses
which the waters will hide
their aromas are the hope that makes you
the Goddess of the Sea

may the candle in the west
ocean like

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emptied of words
i feel
w e i r d
i say
must be the moon

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solitude

this is new
i like this
but is it okay
to be so disconnected

i build
sticks and glue
i feel
lost in time

this must be what remii feels
i always wondered
‘aren’t you tired?’
i get it
puzzling of what’s inside your mind
turning it inside out
it is an experience
may this stay
forever
i like this very much

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completely boyless atm
no space
no time
no brain cells to blindly communicate
the firsts to feel
what’s whole what’s all mine

not a cell to doubt
my next soul mate is around the corner
he’ll be great
he’ll appreciate my journey
he’ll be kind
i can’t wait to meet that knight in shining armor
we’ll conquer the world
haha
maybe
we’ll see
we’ll embark on an adventure
adventure of a life time
i can’t wait yeehah

hey cutes eye see you

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who’s meant to stay
shall stay
who’s meant to otherwise
shall do as they please

i am me
and there’s no one i’d rather be

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and um
i need to join shopaholics anonymous
some kind of feels
no control
haha

its actually not so bad
compared to before
BUT
must stop
money in the bank won’t hurt

eliminate
minimize
clean out my mind

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the bar and the vibe
fucking blows my mind
it collaborates so well
wetting me beyond all means

ahh Mmmm thats right
the sounds
the tingles
the sensations

fuck that’s good

right there
keep going
n i c e
and slow
the right pressure
that combination
i melt
completely

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i pray
stay in touch
spirituality
stay in tuned

L O V e

paper plane

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how must you ache
i understand
at least you have me
i promise to make it
to make your sacrifices worth it

just a week
easily spared
meanings of gold

tears
aching for you
that selfish fucker
cannot describe
absolutely speechless

just do
at least
prove the least

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fifth day
twenty eighth day
two hundred eighty eighth day

two zero one six
no boys
no c o c a i n e

my numbers
little goals
every second that ticks
all the credit is mine
i’ve done it now

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warped between thirteen and fourteen
first segment of the year
high and up above
with my golden wings
accelerating through with ease

a student to the earth
a lover to self fellow beings
a giver returning blessings
a master to focused thoughts

cannot lie
cannot say i am not greedy
i want it all
i want to feel it all
i want to embrace all of it

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vision

layers
my own space
rustic stories
originality
splashes of colour

opening my eye
seek standing still
in the moment
combination of the senses
product of my membrane

touch down
creatively flowing
enjoying the process
little pranks of le beloved mercury
laughing it off
retracing my thoughts

tradition and rules
research and decompose
out of the box i say
no box can contain this
i grow
expansion is due

looking forward
delighted to grasp
this future of mine
ready to fight relentlessly
for my own recognition

M I N E

tilted

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but i am actually good
can’t help if we’re tilted
i miss prosthesis and mended thoughts
trampled over beauty while singing their souls
i match them with my euphoria
when they said ‘je suis plus folle que toi’
don’t be a downer
i am in my right place

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rolling through day ten
nine days of no boys
no boys prioritized

much more focus
much more productivity
much more stabilized mood
much more happiness

tis truly great
proud am i
twenty days to go
infinite possibilities

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sisterhood
rebonded
resealed

best day ever
best captures ever
best everything ever

new direction?
together, maybe?
would be nice
must wait a bit to see

our respect
our love
our teamwork
our selflessness

pretty fucking awesome
more adventures please
tilted we are
til death do us part

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life
so good
itching to rebel
will i flip
whale i hold
time will tell

l i v i n g

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twelve days
more whole than ever
w o w z a

clearer of what i seek
vision compiling

love
to share
to have
to hold

no bullshit
no fronts

make the best of
duration dont matter
as long as there’s growth

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twentieth day

clearest now
you’re the one i like
i actually like you
your smile
your laugh
your uniqueness
your passion
your hands
your calmness
your safety
the way you look at me
the way you laugh with me

what i originally thought
appearance faded into the background
it wasn’t about that
i still think you’re that big thing
big thing coming for me

still ever so confused
all the lack of

being away defined my mind
tis actually isn’t lust or obsession
pure enjoyment in our soul connection
wonder if this does that for you as well

hopeful
i sincerely ask
the heavens and above
wait i shall
round and round

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big boy
sweetest
never have i received
this kind of affection
might be a bit much
kind of want to run
oddly stressful

shifting to appreciation
just have to remember
we accept the love we think we deserve
i deserve this
not only from him
but from any and all romantic connection to have
the beginning
new route
okay enjoy myself

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three and a half more days
wrapping it up
the bestest fucking year
the greatest fucking year

as if I had golden stars
shooting star rockets underneath my feet
flying me through the land of luck
high above cloud nine

savoring this dish called life
course by course
jaw dropping unravels
amazing moments experiences
never the same feels duplicates
plating tasting those perfectly imperfect bits

all new
all of the best
all of the glitz
i fucking love my life
i fucking love me

wishes granted
one after another
fortunes the theme
my whole entire life
delayed realization
to say the least, i swear

surreal
ethereal
bizarre
fanatical

x

real

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code

don’t say no
no doors closed
all roads opened
the pick of the world

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the inevitable
not so bad actually
facing it soberly
ace of clubs it shuts

karmic
i owe you
if this is all
praise the lord
farewell can easily be bid

neptune
the fantasy to you
rose colored goggles
can’t see me for who i am
i can see that
if not even purposely driven
not sure
i assumed of more pull
be it, let go

pluto
want to lure you in
want the restriction
want you to wear your heart for me
if the chance
i shall conquer
i seldomly swear

three times the fun
waits the game
hope to cross paths again
i am grateful
good riddance to you for now

xoxo

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treasure map
so surreal
is this really happening
two years later
long overdue
wonder what’s in store
honest no game
in it just for the fun
perfect aesthetics
look forward to
touch, feel, play
don’t tease
for real
come inside
i am ready

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the accent
the gentleman
completely wowed
expecting fuckboy nonetheless
tomorrows the night
apologize for the wait
best version is worth it
pinky promised

good asset
toy i deem

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creative space
talents the bore
what is the motive
the green?
the booze?
the women?
the passion?
how to assume ones
unsure
who cares
the glitz and glamour
always replaced
one after another
the sooner you look
the clearer it becomes
transparent

melodic
dark
grunge

what does that all embody?
what is everyone chasing?
what glosses these glasses?
dream chasing money back guarantee?
questions questions questions
up close and personal
negatively positive spaces

problem child
my muse
my inspiration
opening my eyes
growing visuals
love it
embrace it

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after thoughts
actual genuine
facade to impress the glam
goofy goody what
going under
blown up it may be
best of luck to you

pretty face
layered presentation
yet to puzzle
open to create
present more
further
we shall see

name necklace
bid farewell
five years
tear
fuck my life
carelessnesssssss

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tucking the rest of the year up
managing the thoughts carefully
thank all that not belong
welcome all ye positive and bright

focusing on this being
the being of self
the beings of my space

make it full
make it passion
make it shine
make it completely mine

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which which
L O VE

rainbow

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somewhere
over that
over that hump
i am

sounds of the ocean
waves of the atlantic
the best vibes
with my one and only

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going along
some kinds of fun
wazing through crowds
experiencing visual forms
creative lives
we us then
sacred works of all
interconnected through this platform
free expression
venus’s the limit
get on that

boxes of cubicles
heart and souls
all bits of brain juice
splashes of the taints
glossy over that source of boom

vibrance
minimal
shapes
contrast
influenced
light up
steel works of art
art that tells of ones deepest secrets

its that
that’s amazing
that outlet

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no matter if
you are great
it shall be your loss
if and maybe why
not sure what to think
calming myself
reeling my thoughts in
not worth it really
too much to explore
can’t hold on to your spot
see how it plays
numbered days
blerch

what can you offer me
besides that sense of security
that tall glass of eye candy
nothing else really
adventure…eh
love…eh
sex…hmm
exactly
so there is much to be proven
until then
don’t get too comfortable boo
get ready for a fight
prize of your life
mm okay thanks bye

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treasure map
have you finally gathered snack and supplies
hunting in that city of ours
first ever exchange

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big ol’ grey cloud
what are you up to
What are you thinking
what do you do
my curiosity gets the best of me
i know there’s warnings
shall tread carefully
arms length
don’t mind the fire
hope not to get burned
reveal yeself!

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i reminisce
for the thousandth time i swear
the last tangle
fitting so perfectly in yours
your fingertips traced over my skin
marking itself ever so familiarly
playing the keys to the tunes of my soul
the touch of magic
you have

i fucking miss
the thought of you
the texts of you
the smiles of you
the smell of you
lingering
never forgotten
connected through the cloud of sound
forever and more

lost in you no longer
i should be glad
a tad i guess
sanity > it all

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cheerio proposal
i know what you want
i am unable to fulfill that position right now
my bad for peeling the old wound
its truly unfair
my head clearly knows
how perfect you’d treat me
unready for that
that step is big
too big for us at the moment
my apologies

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nineteen months
can it be?
anticipating
might be light and fun
comfort at the least
see ya thursday!

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so much media
too much
too fucking much
someone something somewhere
telling you
who to be
what to think
no room for self growth

UGH

i know the inevitable
i don’t want to complain
i can’t say i am completely free of

BUT F U C K

how can i avoid
take the first steps of my path
completely out of the box
never the first
can it be
born dis da hipsters
weird loop
unsolvable loop
the only one i am responsible for is
me, myself and i

center and stand tall
do my best
live my life
let all else flow on

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all these distractions
all these males
just need to remind myself
of the one criteria

you must be passionate about me

no passion
no go
not settling for anything less
oh, the ease
i got this
reminded!

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keep reading
keep praticing
that unconditional love
keep searching
keep experiencing

all the pieces falling together
all once so broken
falling back together so perfectly

believe in me
take me higher
i love this life
i love my life

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twinsie
matching
all day
all night

this soul twin of mine
unlike any other i have met
her individuality
leads me gently to inspire me
gives me space to grow into my own
some sort of opposites
but we work
hey
like magic on ice
no sense but what sense to life really

this trip
we made it our own
we made it one of the bests
another city to add to the books
so many more adventures to come

the best duo
you’ve got to show me love
pillow fights
i got handled
snapchat noobies
natural conversationalists
instant moments
imperfectly perfect moments
all the moments
recorded
remembered

woo
you’s it

a i n i

carousel 

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round and round
we go
will i catch up to love
i could never tell

come
come on
come all

oh come take my hand
so high
too high at this playground of mine

all fun and games
til one falls in love
you’ve already bought the ticket
no turning back now

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master of time
reconfirmed
sexy hands
that natural vibe
so free flowing
feels really nice
so much giggles
we look nice

pretty darn sexy
in your arms i feel
pretty darn enticed
within your aura don’t you know

i like
attracted
buckle up
ride

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whites
the purest
most innocent

want to show you the world
want to hold your hand to explore

my proposal
best kind of experience
hope you will be on board

i wana guide you
i wana play you
i wana feel you

don’t resist
trust me and lets go

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twisted noon
feelings fading
maybe never
sigh

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big ole grey cloud
tis’ you
i felt
intuition on fleek
not about that life
all kinds of hidden agendas
not down to play
no game
boohoo
to find what you’re looking for
might take a weeeeee big longer
so long precious
le void you filled
appreciated

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new little life
year of change
grateful for it all
how big changes you’ll bring
i love you already
you little baby boo
get bigger safe and sound
await your arrival
welcome to this world

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countless days of sobriety
countless days of happiness
so fucking clear
it all

free to dream
free to do
free to create
nothing to stop me now

refocus
re-read
one more month of cruising
before speeding straight into life
this life
amazing it has been

i love
i laugh
i live

T H A N K F U L

wonder

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The greatest of human emotions is love. The most valuable of human gifts is the ability to learn. Therefore, learn to love. –UJ Ramdas

i wonder
what it takes
for my papa bear
to figure this simple concept out
complexity
seems to be the theme
ever-changing
instability

i
planted seeds
seeds of thought
hoping for that silver lining
hoping that it is not too late

that sense of loneliness
that sight of hopelessness
what has led you to this
series of unfortunate decisions

little voices
i do regret
not staying and fight it out
i mustn’t guilt
i needed my sanity
i needed to become who i am right now
to be the rock they need
in time as such

this is heavy
heavier than accustomed
i foresee lots of directions
i felt weird things

its my time to give back
sending my parentals the best
unconditional love
from their blood their heart

my mama bear
how i cringe
at the person he made you be
how much you have sacrificed
for him and the rest
i understand
i promise not to let you down
pride in me
i assure you
i will take you above and beyond
bring you inner peace
expose you to more beautiful scapes
better angles of life

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i
have so much
fucking feelings
emotions
overloading my tear ducts
flooding my cheeks
fogging my brain

last day is the hardest
night is darkest before dawn

my whole journey has led me to this
to this peak of reality
i won’t shy away
i am fucking ready
to battle this out
with the love i have for my family
alongside my bloods

keep bettering myself
be swifter than the rest
must glue us together
the destiny

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one day away
one year anniversary
version two point oh
evolving into version two point one
as i type
the deepest of my neurowaves
this outlet i have
make the best of
odd talent i have

dont stop
c r e a te

three four seven

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life
what is

THIS IS

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so hard to put these feels into words
this amazingness
awesomely out of this world
almost out of body
insanely unreal
experience to the say the least

from the glance of my reflection in his eyes
to my reflection in all my recent encounters

i see ME
the me i am destined to be

how fucking sick
to get here
not even in twelve months time
super powers i must possess
LOL
just keeeeeding

priorities straight
fights no more
i am so sure
one hundred percent
no need to bicker for acknowledgement
the result is inside
shining outwardly

amongst every contact
exuding the best
acceptance of all
understanding perspective

after all, we are just human
fighting for our own
searching for our light
exploring for our home

the home in ourselves
the home in our other half
the home in our family
the home in our love

only the beginning
the beginning of my next journey
i can hardly contain the excitement
lots of preparation
last week to subdue
finish with a bang bang sha bang
2 0 1 5
you’ve been so good to me
i fucking

L O V E

shirk

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better each other
companionship
the sexiest kind
to grow
no games
be direct
life goals
extreme funs
endeavoring sights
unstoppable giggles
is what

c l e a r m i n d

no rush
stay strong
two thirds to go
time will tell

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intrigued by this
out of left field i say
building this odd connection
between this many miles apart
who wouldve thought
story sharing
pictures and greetings
its weird
can’t help but feel
probability tis big giant cloud?
i don’t know
but i will know

nice atm

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little trinkets
little flashbacks
always missing
m y l i t t l e p u n k
one and only lucky charm

how are you
how have you been
how are you eating
how have you slept

may life bring you nothing but the best
you deserve the best
if not the best of the best
know you’ll always get up so do your best
hold you hand, i wish
look forward to the next life with you
i think i love you always
always the best

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flew by it went
seven days down
explored the cities
mini me of mine

sick lines and structures
rigid culture and traditions
pretties nails and shizz
made yummies sushi and rice
heaven made bar be que we devoured
the hearts to hearts i cherish
blessing may it be at times
great memories for life

T O K Y I O O O DES