if i go

weird
these feelings

if i go
will you miss me

not in my hands
feeling all sorts of odd
emotionally challenged
emptied sockets

if i go
know that i am no longer in pain
although many more things i’ve yet to do
but i’ve done so much
most of all i became me
practioner of unconditional love

you
all bits and pieces
slices of my core
you all make who i am
i am a little of each of you
the most beautiful souls in this world

family
best friends
soul mates
guides
my world

all the smiles
all the twinkles
all the links
all the kinks

rebirth again and again
tumble and rumble through it all

i am the luckiest
i wouldn’t be anyone else but me
if i can do it
you can do it too
i believe in you

no matter how young
no matter how ignorant
no matter how naive

each and everyone of us
are doing our best in this moment
the best way we know how

– – – –

y o u

yellow
took your time
oh but the feelings you make me feel
i have yet to experience

its so nice
but so scary

i can never not see
but with you
i feel like i can close my eyes
and everything will be alright

better than better
finer than fine

this trust
never have i ever

– – – –

taking off
in the hands of the mighty universe

no matter how high
never let me forget
how grateful
how out of this world my life has been

lucky am i
my playground

to be continued. . .

hohoho

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maison michel
M O T H E R d a u g h t e r
matching
together forever

– – – –

h o l l y j o l l y

thankful for my family
holiday everyday
s p o i l e d

custom monogram case
dollah dollah beels yall
picasso-to-be kit + sex shades
date with elphaba & glinda in hollywood
unthoughtout credits

– – – –

i can kind of see
mildly visible
your withdrawal
your troubles

efforts appreciated
continuous forms of communication

much to prove
tolerable mr right meow
something mysterious
still intriguing

– – – –

no bs
testing my limits
attracted
can i bi?
weirdly pushy
honest
potentially yummy

c h a n c e ?

– – – –

w i t t l e o n e
long awaited plans
along for the ride
i likey
c o n q u e s t

i aint going no where
show and tell

p o s s i b l y . . . .
too little too late

– – – –

need isolation
need space
need rediscovery
need filler
need cells
need white+

R E f u c k i n g S E T
get ready for the end of a new beginning

its coming

– – – –

you’ve been great
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