The greatest of human emotions is love. The most valuable of human gifts is the ability to learn. Therefore, learn to love. –UJ Ramdas

i wonder
what it takes
for my papa bear
to figure this simple concept out
complexity
seems to be the theme
ever-changing
instability

i
planted seeds
seeds of thought
hoping for that silver lining
hoping that it is not too late

that sense of loneliness
that sight of hopelessness
what has led you to this
series of unfortunate decisions

little voices
i do regret
not staying and fight it out
i mustn’t guilt
i needed my sanity
i needed to become who i am right now
to be the rock they need
in time as such

this is heavy
heavier than accustomed
i foresee lots of directions
i felt weird things

its my time to give back
sending my parentals the best
unconditional love
from their blood their heart

my mama bear
how i cringe
at the person he made you be
how much you have sacrificed
for him and the rest
i understand
i promise not to let you down
pride in me
i assure you
i will take you above and beyond
bring you inner peace
expose you to more beautiful scapes
better angles of life

– – – –

i
have so much
fucking feelings
emotions
overloading my tear ducts
flooding my cheeks
fogging my brain

last day is the hardest
night is darkest before dawn

my whole journey has led me to this
to this peak of reality
i won’t shy away
i am fucking ready
to battle this out
with the love i have for my family
alongside my bloods

keep bettering myself
be swifter than the rest
must glue us together
the destiny

– – – –

one day away
one year anniversary
version two point oh
evolving into version two point one
as i type
the deepest of my neurowaves
this outlet i have
make the best of
odd talent i have

dont stop
c r e a te