life

paper plane

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how must you ache
i understand
at least you have me
i promise to make it
to make your sacrifices worth it

just a week
easily spared
meanings of gold

tears
aching for you
that selfish fucker
cannot describe
absolutely speechless

just do
at least
prove the least

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fifth day
twenty eighth day
two hundred eighty eighth day

two zero one six
no boys
no c o c a i n e

my numbers
little goals
every second that ticks
all the credit is mine
i’ve done it now

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warped between thirteen and fourteen
first segment of the year
high and up above
with my golden wings
accelerating through with ease

a student to the earth
a lover to self fellow beings
a giver returning blessings
a master to focused thoughts

cannot lie
cannot say i am not greedy
i want it all
i want to feel it all
i want to embrace all of it

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vision

layers
my own space
rustic stories
originality
splashes of colour

opening my eye
seek standing still
in the moment
combination of the senses
product of my membrane

touch down
creatively flowing
enjoying the process
little pranks of le beloved mercury
laughing it off
retracing my thoughts

tradition and rules
research and decompose
out of the box i say
no box can contain this
i grow
expansion is due

looking forward
delighted to grasp
this future of mine
ready to fight relentlessly
for my own recognition

M I N E

rainbow

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somewhere
over that
over that hump
i am

sounds of the ocean
waves of the atlantic
the best vibes
with my one and only

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going along
some kinds of fun
wazing through crowds
experiencing visual forms
creative lives
we us then
sacred works of all
interconnected through this platform
free expression
venus’s the limit
get on that

boxes of cubicles
heart and souls
all bits of brain juice
splashes of the taints
glossy over that source of boom

vibrance
minimal
shapes
contrast
influenced
light up
steel works of art
art that tells of ones deepest secrets

its that
that’s amazing
that outlet

– – – –

no matter if
you are great
it shall be your loss
if and maybe why
not sure what to think
calming myself
reeling my thoughts in
not worth it really
too much to explore
can’t hold on to your spot
see how it plays
numbered days
blerch

what can you offer me
besides that sense of security
that tall glass of eye candy
nothing else really
adventure…eh
love…eh
sex…hmm
exactly
so there is much to be proven
until then
don’t get too comfortable boo
get ready for a fight
prize of your life
mm okay thanks bye

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treasure map
have you finally gathered snack and supplies
hunting in that city of ours
first ever exchange

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big ol’ grey cloud
what are you up to
What are you thinking
what do you do
my curiosity gets the best of me
i know there’s warnings
shall tread carefully
arms length
don’t mind the fire
hope not to get burned
reveal yeself!

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i reminisce
for the thousandth time i swear
the last tangle
fitting so perfectly in yours
your fingertips traced over my skin
marking itself ever so familiarly
playing the keys to the tunes of my soul
the touch of magic
you have

i fucking miss
the thought of you
the texts of you
the smiles of you
the smell of you
lingering
never forgotten
connected through the cloud of sound
forever and more

lost in you no longer
i should be glad
a tad i guess
sanity > it all

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cheerio proposal
i know what you want
i am unable to fulfill that position right now
my bad for peeling the old wound
its truly unfair
my head clearly knows
how perfect you’d treat me
unready for that
that step is big
too big for us at the moment
my apologies

– – – –

nineteen months
can it be?
anticipating
might be light and fun
comfort at the least
see ya thursday!

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so much media
too much
too fucking much
someone something somewhere
telling you
who to be
what to think
no room for self growth

UGH

i know the inevitable
i don’t want to complain
i can’t say i am completely free of

BUT F U C K

how can i avoid
take the first steps of my path
completely out of the box
never the first
can it be
born dis da hipsters
weird loop
unsolvable loop
the only one i am responsible for is
me, myself and i

center and stand tall
do my best
live my life
let all else flow on

– – – –

all these distractions
all these males
just need to remind myself
of the one criteria

you must be passionate about me

no passion
no go
not settling for anything less
oh, the ease
i got this
reminded!

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keep reading
keep praticing
that unconditional love
keep searching
keep experiencing

all the pieces falling together
all once so broken
falling back together so perfectly

believe in me
take me higher
i love this life
i love my life

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twinsie
matching
all day
all night

this soul twin of mine
unlike any other i have met
her individuality
leads me gently to inspire me
gives me space to grow into my own
some sort of opposites
but we work
hey
like magic on ice
no sense but what sense to life really

this trip
we made it our own
we made it one of the bests
another city to add to the books
so many more adventures to come

the best duo
you’ve got to show me love
pillow fights
i got handled
snapchat noobies
natural conversationalists
instant moments
imperfectly perfect moments
all the moments
recorded
remembered

woo
you’s it

a i n i

carousel 

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round and round
we go
will i catch up to love
i could never tell

come
come on
come all

oh come take my hand
so high
too high at this playground of mine

all fun and games
til one falls in love
you’ve already bought the ticket
no turning back now

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master of time
reconfirmed
sexy hands
that natural vibe
so free flowing
feels really nice
so much giggles
we look nice

pretty darn sexy
in your arms i feel
pretty darn enticed
within your aura don’t you know

i like
attracted
buckle up
ride

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whites
the purest
most innocent

want to show you the world
want to hold your hand to explore

my proposal
best kind of experience
hope you will be on board

i wana guide you
i wana play you
i wana feel you

don’t resist
trust me and lets go

– – – –

twisted noon
feelings fading
maybe never
sigh

– – – –

big ole grey cloud
tis’ you
i felt
intuition on fleek
not about that life
all kinds of hidden agendas
not down to play
no game
boohoo
to find what you’re looking for
might take a weeeeee big longer
so long precious
le void you filled
appreciated

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new little life
year of change
grateful for it all
how big changes you’ll bring
i love you already
you little baby boo
get bigger safe and sound
await your arrival
welcome to this world

– – – –

countless days of sobriety
countless days of happiness
so fucking clear
it all

free to dream
free to do
free to create
nothing to stop me now

refocus
re-read
one more month of cruising
before speeding straight into life
this life
amazing it has been

i love
i laugh
i live

T H A N K F U L

wonder

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The greatest of human emotions is love. The most valuable of human gifts is the ability to learn. Therefore, learn to love. –UJ Ramdas

i wonder
what it takes
for my papa bear
to figure this simple concept out
complexity
seems to be the theme
ever-changing
instability

i
planted seeds
seeds of thought
hoping for that silver lining
hoping that it is not too late

that sense of loneliness
that sight of hopelessness
what has led you to this
series of unfortunate decisions

little voices
i do regret
not staying and fight it out
i mustn’t guilt
i needed my sanity
i needed to become who i am right now
to be the rock they need
in time as such

this is heavy
heavier than accustomed
i foresee lots of directions
i felt weird things

its my time to give back
sending my parentals the best
unconditional love
from their blood their heart

my mama bear
how i cringe
at the person he made you be
how much you have sacrificed
for him and the rest
i understand
i promise not to let you down
pride in me
i assure you
i will take you above and beyond
bring you inner peace
expose you to more beautiful scapes
better angles of life

– – – –

i
have so much
fucking feelings
emotions
overloading my tear ducts
flooding my cheeks
fogging my brain

last day is the hardest
night is darkest before dawn

my whole journey has led me to this
to this peak of reality
i won’t shy away
i am fucking ready
to battle this out
with the love i have for my family
alongside my bloods

keep bettering myself
be swifter than the rest
must glue us together
the destiny

– – – –

one day away
one year anniversary
version two point oh
evolving into version two point one
as i type
the deepest of my neurowaves
this outlet i have
make the best of
odd talent i have

dont stop
c r e a te

three four seven

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life
what is

THIS IS

– – – –

so hard to put these feels into words
this amazingness
awesomely out of this world
almost out of body
insanely unreal
experience to the say the least

from the glance of my reflection in his eyes
to my reflection in all my recent encounters

i see ME
the me i am destined to be

how fucking sick
to get here
not even in twelve months time
super powers i must possess
LOL
just keeeeeding

priorities straight
fights no more
i am so sure
one hundred percent
no need to bicker for acknowledgement
the result is inside
shining outwardly

amongst every contact
exuding the best
acceptance of all
understanding perspective

after all, we are just human
fighting for our own
searching for our light
exploring for our home

the home in ourselves
the home in our other half
the home in our family
the home in our love

only the beginning
the beginning of my next journey
i can hardly contain the excitement
lots of preparation
last week to subdue
finish with a bang bang sha bang
2 0 1 5
you’ve been so good to me
i fucking

L O V E

identifier 

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say it
wear it
dream it
scream it

one more time
backwards
e c i l a
upside down
what does it
who says it
whoever unriddles this shall be mine

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feeling blindly
blinding feeling

wait

i mean

feeling blinding
overwhelming feelings
not so sure
of these waves of emotions
the twist especially
unexplainable
out of the norm

– – – –

as if

what if

to if

if has lost its meaning

– – – –

trust is the theme
trust in the universe
trust in life
trust in me, most importantly

trust the experiences
trust the significance of events
trust the feelings
T R U S T

working on it 👍🏼

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new city
first for my physical body
cant say for my deja vu’s
never gets old

altitude
longitude
atmospheric differences
always one of a kind

feeling lucky
feeling happy
feeling all the good stuff

e X c i t e m e n t

abstemious

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addiction, under control
moderately syncing
balancing it all

– – – –

the final goodbye 🍀💚
i cherish forever and more
none but the best wishes

being fully without
beats waves of warptwerkhuhwhatyeah
completely lost in time
ten months front line combat day and night
been. in. through.
im alright
could get used to
the calmest goodbye

– – – –

HIGH ON LIFE

then
dwelled on the neg

now
i magnetize
all that is good
all that is amazing

ridiculous shift
utterly surreal
– – – – 

motherfuckin’ a l i c e i s b a c k 

seven of diamonds 

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seven of diamonds card of spiritual values
nine of clubs one of the sexiest in the deck

magical in every sense
coming into ME

– – – –

been a while
been meaning to
so much ups and downs
so down cannot translate into words
up to the point of no return

promise
stablity with you
least i can do

so DO IT
n o e x c u s e s

– – – –

whirlwind 6 days

three of spades // artist card
nine of diamonds // the giver

lack of words
know what i feel
cherishing every moment
man child
mine

– – – – 

b r b

as if

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i left a part of me with you

– – – –

overdue reunion
as if we never separated

feels like yesterday
three seasons passed

different paths
different countries
different relationships
different surroundings

yet…

same growth
same thoughts
same evolution
same love
same questions
same feelings

soul sisters?
no doubt

past life or this life
we fuckers for life

– – – –

chaotic in my brain
not my own inner
peeking in from the out
must defuse
recenter my core

feeling unpresent
a part of me stays

– – – –

yet another interesting
that feeling i cant describe
i remember from previous encounter
sobreity proves me right

a strange feeling
with one whom i am so familiar
flirtation?
not quite
admiration?
perhaps
strange attraction
borderline delusional
guess time will tell
for now
here we part

– – – –

slowly regaining inspiration

contempoary
modern
love
life
environment
minimal

patiently i wait
almost over the hump
instinctive feelings
excitements to come

– – – –

glow fucker glow
hand in hand we grow
connected souls
in sync visions

l o v e 1 0 0 %

closure

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deep within

i wish there was more i can do
but i understand
it is your fight
your solo battle
wish i can help you like the way you helped me
you stubborn narcissist
wish you can see
right beside you there i will be

sending you my love
always

you know where to find me.

– – – –

next chapter
washed away
chills of excitement
in place
almost time
can’t hold me back

L I F E