flirty thirty

good morning Louise

lets begin the day together

making sure my body are very comfortable
if there is any tension spots in my body that may have come from a difficult dream during the night
just breathe into that area
and let it go

feel how comfortable it is
for my body to be where it is
feel the warmth and the peace
and know that today will be a new day
such as i have never had before

i may have some general plans for the day
and i know what some of the experiences may be
but not all of them

when we awaken in the morning
we never know exactly exactly how the day will end
delightful surprises
and wonderful adventures are before us

ALL OF MY THOUGHTS CREATE MY FUTURE
every thought i think is creating my future
now it really doesn’t matter
what sort of thoughts i used to think in the past
in all those mornings i awaken to before

the only thing that matters is the kind of though i am choosing to think now
in this very moment

together now
lets release from my consciousness
all fear and anxiety
all anger and resentment
all guilt and the need for punishment
lets dissolve all sadness and jealousy
just let it go

those are not the thoughts we are going to use to create this new day
this is a new day
and a new beginning

feel the air as it goes in and out of my body

its such a miracle
the way my body breathes itself
the air comes into the lungs
then it is sent over to the heart where it mingles with the blood

and this oxygenated blood is circulated
throughout my body
through all the veins and arteries
down to the tiniest little capillaries
bathing
and soaking
and nourishing
every cell in my body

i don’t even have to think about how to do this
there is an intelligence in my body
that takes care of it for me
it breathes my body
it beats my heart
it digests my food

this intelligence enables me to see
to walk
to hold things
to communicate with others
and to love

there are so many things in our lives we take for granted
we so seldom take time out
to be thankful and grateful
for the many miracles we have in our every day lives
and for the miracles we call our bodies

too often,
we only concentrate
on what we do not have

it blesses our future
to be thankful
for what we do have now

it opens the way for the good to flow in
in ever increasing abundance

let us begin with appreciating the very bed we have slept in all night
think about how warm and comfortable it has kept my body
while i slept and did my dreamwork
and refreshed my mind and my body
thank my bed

bless the furniture in my home
that comforts my body
and fulfills various necessary functions and conveniences

we all have a favorite piece of furniture
have i ever thanked it for being there for me?
do that now

then think of the miracle of the electric light in my home
how wonderful it is to have it
think of all the things i can use electricity for

remember our appliances are extensions of ourselves
and just as our relationships with other people are more wonderful when we are loving
so it is with the relationships we have with what we call “things”
appliances and automobiles
do not break down when we are in good space

so mentally thank my refrigerator for being there
for keeping my food fresh for me

thank my stove for helping me cook all those meals

now what else do i have in mt kitchen
that i can bless with love?
do that now

now think of that modern miracle called my bathroom
even kings and queens were not able to experience the conveniences we take for granted only a century ago
so bless the plumbing system
that so easily and simply removes the waste products

the hot and cold water that is so readily available to us
when we just turn a small knob
the convenience of being able to bathe our bodies
whenever we desire
these are all miracles

bless the radio i listen to
and the television that entertains me

let us be grateful for the telephone that brings us love
and communications with people everywhere

bless my mailbox
and the postal service
that helps us communicate with people all over this planet called earth
in just a few days time
it is a miracle, that we take for granted

let us be thankful for the air that we breathe
which is so precious to us
and we take so for granted

when we exhale
we don’t even think about where our next breath is coming from
yet this incredible power
that has created us
has given us enough breath to last as long as we shall live

let us be thankful for the sunshine
and the rain
without the rain
the vegetation would die
and we would have a barren planet
without beauty or food

let us be thankful for the wind that clears the skies
and the beauty of the MOONLIGHT

bless the vegetation that feeds and nourishes me
whenever i eat
bless the food with love
and i thank it for giving its life to nourish me

now think of the clothing i wear
think of the infinite choices we have with colors and fabrics
to adorn and comfort our bodies

if it is hot
we can choose light, cool clothing
if it is cold
we can choose warm cozy fabrics to comfort us

think of the miracle called walking
how wonderful it is to be able to get up
and to move to a new place by walking
thank my feet
for taking me so many places in the world

then look at all the other forms of transportation we have to choose from
and be thankful for em’
there are roller skates
and skateboards
and bicycles
and buses
and trucks
and automobiles
and trains
and airplanes
and ships that sail upon the waters
we have our choice
and we take them so for granted

how often have we been angry
when our automobile did not perform perfectly

bless our car with love
and be aware of the miracle it is
to get into this comfortable piece of machinery
that moves us about this planet
with very few manipulations
we move forward to our destination
it is one of our daily miracles

the next time our plane is delayed
release the tendency to be angry
instead, acknowledge the incredible ability
to be able to get into a little metal tube
that rises up in the sky
and swiftly takes us
to another place on this planet
it is one of our safest forms of transportation
and planes need love
just as we do

let our minds go over the various relationships we have in our lives
bless them all with love
and be thankful for them
THEY ARE ALL OUR TEACHERS

there are special things in my life
that i am thankful for
so take this moment
to let my mind
gently and lovingly
move throughout my life
past or present
giving thanks for places
people
or experiences
that either have been
or are now in our lives

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i am grateful:
everything
every soul
every experience
that led me
to this point in time
to this point in life

thank you
i love you

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it is such a wonderful feeling to be thankful
it prepares and opens the way
for more good to come into our lives

there is a power
and a presence
that resides within us
that is always there
to lead us
and to guide us
and make smooth and easy our ways

all we need to do
is to acknowledge this
and allow it to work for us

too often
when we awaken in the morning,
we leap out of bed
and try to push our way through life
controlling everything in sight
but that’s not how this power works

it’s like trying to control our breathing
and our heartbeat
or our digestion

if we try
all we do
is interfere and upset
the natural rhythm and flow
of our bodily processes

the best thing we can do for our body
is to feed it natural foods and beverages
to exercise in ways that are a pleasure to us
and to allow the intelligence in the body
to take care of all the rest

so it is with our lives
we think positive and loving thoughts
we forgive others
we are kind to ourselves mentally
and then we allow the intelligence of the universe
to take over
and create which is for our highest good
and greatest joy

this way
the process works smoothly

the power that created us
has given us the power
to create our lives
the power of choice and the thoughts we think

we have INFINITE choice
of that we can choose to think

these choices
create our future

if we choose hurt and anger and resentment
then we would just create more hurt and anger and resentment

IF WE WANT LOVE
WE MUST THINK LOVING THOUGHTS

IF WE WANT JOY
WE MUST THINK JOY

IF WE WANT TO EXPERIENCE PEACE AND CALM
WE MUST THINK PEACEFUL THOUGHTS

if we want prosperity
then we must open ourselves to it mentally

if we want to flow creatively
then we must acknowledge our ability

say this within mentally:
I AM AN OPEN CHANNEL FOR DIVINE IDEAS TO FLOW THROUGH ME
and the creativity of the universe
now expresses through me
that which i need to know
is revealed to me
and whatever i need
comes to me

I AM DIVINELY PROTECTED AND GUIDED
and my way is made smooth and easy

one of the things that create so many problems for us
is thoughts of anger and resentment and blame

so let us take a moment
before we actively begin our day
to consciously dissolve that from within our mind

please join in saying
i release all need
for anger or resentment or blame

i truly forgive
all those that need forgiving
and i forgive myself

i look forward to this day
with love and peace and joy
and anticipation
of abundant good
in every area

where ever i am going today
send love ahead to that place
if i am going shopping
then send love ahead of me
to the market
or the store
to the building itself
to all the merchandise in it
to all the people
to the customers
to the employees and the owners

know that i will be guided
to make the perfect selections that will benefit me the most
and both me and the store
will be blessed and prospered

do the same thing
if i am going to have something repaired
or if i’m going to see a lawyer
or a doctor
or a dentist

if i am going to work this morning
then do the same thing
send love ahead of me
to my place of business
to the building
to the people i work with
and the people i work for
to the furniture and equipment that i use
and to anything else i will come in contact with

let us declare together
that this is healthy
harmonious
loving
prosperous
and creative day for me
that it filled with joy
that i welcome change and adventure
that i bring new experiences and new people
into my life

if there is anyone
i expect to meet today
that irritates me in any way
just bless them with love
bless them with love
the love i send to them will return to me, MULTIPLIED
and i will benefit in ways
i cannot even imagine

whatever we give out
returns to us

as we go through this day
say over and over to ourselves
two or three hundred times is barely enough
i approve of myself
i approve of myself

say it with me right now ALOUD

i approve of myself
i approve of myself

i am worth loving
i am willing to change and learn a new way of expressing and experiencing life

i now begin to accept myself exactly as i am
i approve of myself

let this day be filled with love for me
let this day be peaceful and calm
let this day bring new insights, new understandings
let this day bring unexpected prosperity
let this be a day of great joy

this is my day
this is a GOOD day
this is a new day

THIS IS ONE OF THE BESTEST DAYS I HAVE EVER HAD

THIS IS A NEW BEGINNING
go forth
and enjoy
all that there is

i love you
and thank you for your daily guidance

take some nice, deep breaths now
feel the energy filling our bodies
open our eyes
STRETCHHHHHHHH
get up

go forth and enjoy it ALL ❤

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life
oh what a funnny thing
how could i have ever imagined
to be where i am
in life
physcially
and mentally
four years of transformation

better than best
my wise besto once told me
about the things the universe can bring
no doubt
better than my wildest dreams
and its with my minds shift
to appreciate all that was already surrounding me

i feel so lucky
so grateful
i wake up with the biggest smile
every single morning
how could i have lived life
not seeing all the things
not appreciating all the relationships
its made my third eye shine

rawr
i know im getting mushy
but serious
what the fuck
how can anyone be as lucky as me

still alive after all the candies and whites
even more optimistic than ever before with this life’s roller coaster
hahahahahahhaha
oh yeah
powerful mind

thirty feels good already
today i rely on myself
to bring forth the most happiness
one year difference
how amazing
self love journey
keep on going

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
peeeeeeeeeeee
dooooooooo

fa la la la la la la la

flow

Your mind is constantly projecting—projecting itself. Your mind is constantly interfering with reality, giving it a color, shape, and form that are not its own. Your mind never allows you to see that which is; it allows you to see only that which it wants to see. -Osho

hence
listening tis a great gift
the grandest gift
to give
and to receive

today
i listened
i let my father speak
although most i’ve heard in times past
but today
it sounded different

through his many roles
provider he deemed of most value
his utmost priority
must provide
at any cost
at all cost

through that
in my perspective
he lost his sight on the prize

who are you providing for
what are you providing for

once upon a time
the drive was simple
to provide for family
to supply an abundance of
so family doesn’t endure hardship
to focus on being one
or so i assume

fast forward a drive-turned habit
habitually unstoppable
can’t stop
won’t stop
shan’t stop
take a deeper look inside
manipura of its utmost imbalance

through providing
you’ve lost unity
through providing
you’ve failed to see anything outside of
through providing
you’ve overcomplicated
through providing
you’ve destroyed
that raw seed of drive
the drive that brought you here today

no matter what happens
from your perspective
its all o k a y
its all e x c u s a b l e
its all w e l l w i t h i n r e a s o n
because at the end of the day
you’re still the provider
and you’re doing the best you can

the irony of life
is it
often the very thing that drives us
becomes the very thing that destroys us
often the very thing that entangles us
becomes the very thing we despise

one thing i did happen to catch
a rare truth of a statement
you admitted fault to parenting
the lack of in each five of us
admitting is the first step
bravo father bravo
it might not be too late

i didn’t interrupt
i watched you move your lips
listened as your thought process unfolded
bare
naked
raw
all that in relation of
communication at its best

how many chances do we get
rare occurrence all the same
life doesn’t stop spinning
can’t seem to draw my focus
mirror to you
perhaps
maybe

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dad i love you
i truly accept you for all that you are
thank you for showing me
all the to be’s
and not to be’s

i am thankful to be your daughter
US, i’d choose again in lifetimes over
what you provide
allowed me to fly high on this life of mine

you have given me an opportunity
the opportunity
to achieve something
to acquire that thing
unimaginable

i am on my way
through the halted chasing
space you’ve left behind
i have somehow collided
falling into me

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seek what is beautiful
seek the very thing you want
seek those feelings you lust
crave all that sensation you seek

quora answer to
how to improve
contrary to most
one stood out to me

close everything
stop reading
stop watching
just stop
cleanse yourself
until there is no society left inside
in turn
you might get a glimpse
that sparkle
that outlook that is uniquely yours
truly yours
and that’s the treasure to be cherished

part of lifes journey
the very concept that flows me

we are all born into this world
intuitively knowing
how we feel
what we want
what we like
what we don’t like
we did not have to mask that as babies
we were accepted as we are

soon, it changes
our parents tell us we’re wrong
our teachers tell us we’re wrong
our society tell us we’re wrong
they shove their ideal
their vision
their need to be the absolute
down our throat
through our entire being
derailing us so far from our inner need

we start to believe that
maybe that’s the life
maybe that’s the journey
maybe that’s the mate
to our doing

the furthest quest in life
is the one leading back to you
no city far enough
no river wide enough
no mountain high enough
no journey long enough
than the mission to unravel your in

who am i
what is life
who are you
why is life

purpose?
drive?
survive?
life?
how?
me?
when?

u n r i d d l e m e
please

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hi
there you are
its been a while
maybe cause its midnight
maybe because your busy mind finally rests

i miss you boo
i do
but i am so happy
everywhere i turn
i feel the love of john
i feel my mom’s love
my visions are actually becoming reality

i am so happy
i wish that for you
wishing you well
wishing you love
wishing you all the best

sorry i can’t be there
i no longer have that right
for all the right reasons
be well
never stop flowing~

beginning of the end


miles high
new life i stride

so many unknowns
big and blurred
carries of emotions mix

three teaspoons of anxiousness
two full pours of hope
sprinkle of grieve
dash of adrenaline
one full stem of excitement,
chopped up and ready to spread
four cups of happiness
one full bowl of trust

i’m open
i feel like me again

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white suit white shoes
don’t touch por favor

oh gosh
our karma
what a funny little thing
you adorkable shit

fourteen months of experience
i laughed
i enjoyed
i embraced
i adapted
i learned
i pained
i listened
i shared
i compromised
i accommodated
i grew
and most of all,
i committed

i came out of this a whole new person
and i have no one to thank but you
i did loose myself in this swirl of fairy dust
but thankfully
it wasn’t too late
to catch myself and rise above

the experiences you gave me
even now
the seed growing in me
im making the best decision for us though
cannot be connected to you all life
different vibrations
must let you go to fly high

i thank thee
gratitude to the max
i wish for you
self clarity
self love
independence
to be the man that i know you can be

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new chapter
new life
so much new
where i should be

refind the old
adjoining the two
bigger better version four point oh
taking me to the best cycle yet

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past cycle of ten
one detrimental
two transformational
few casual
lots of passerbys

next cycle of ten
true
honest
growth
love
partner
it’s possible because i know me now

snap
capture
my soul through the lines
rediscover
the pure bliss of life
alongside
the gentle innocence
that surrounds my future

damn
long way i’ve come
pat on the back

never could i have ever imagined
never could i have ever thought
here i stand
self knowledge
self mastery
in various shapes and sizes

i’m intrigued by me
i’m in love with me
what more is to life

best life ever
best perspective ever

fellow

double crossed
physical low
mental high
resobertizing
tip top state

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polaroid jello
loopy round and round
courageous start
turbulant journey
irratical organization
overcharged emotions
or better, lack thereof
complete flatlined at surprising times
BUT
here i stand, am, complete
push it
keep em’ coming

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jah
the waiting

– – – –

fellow feeling
wonderful being
conjuring up a space of our own
gliding through the tunes
hearing what i hear
playing in sync

the meledy jammin’
the words relating
the bodies spinning
the minds awakening

explained in words
sought out the truth
i sighed to discover
ultimately absolute

dahh
falala
delirious
the least, experience
uncommon sense
sense of irratibility
feeling of animated beings
we are sick fucks
and guess what
we own this moment

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dont try too hard
hope youre happy
words of likes
warmth to my heart
are you frontin’
untrusting being
just oepn
live
go with the flow
shake it off
free your mind
flashes of color
you’ll never know unless you try
reminder from him
questioned with
how can someone try hard at not trying
darling the answer is clear
just wait
let me solve your confusion
one of a kinds
weirdos
how did we cross paths
still unreal
jepordizing my sanity
or whats left, anyway

g a m e .

discern

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falling in love
w a w
unexpected
need the most work
perceived differently
different light
coming of love and warmth
beginning to see the goods
p r e t t y c o o l

d a h

im amazed
kind of s e x y

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heart to heart
U N I
yummy
one of the best remains
stoned
o happy day

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Pierre Balmain
details
one of my favorite pairs
high rise
asymmetrical
dig
E D G E

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bipolar
zip it up

LETS GO

blocked

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sick
of change of plans
changing minds
restless decision making
a or b fuck no option c

b l o c k a g e
brain cells stopped at the red
continuously reminded to halt by some white
in this moment
i need clarity
i need not insanity
i need not anyone but myself

words of a lone wolf
u n s u r e
yeah that’s right
HUH
self conflicting irony at its best
best in me
me in best
f u d g e z e f a c e

nonsense
anti anxiety
so much space

Z E N
where art thou
are you within arm’s reach
are you sailing away
are you upside down flying
are you taking off on a rocket ship
take me with you

barred
i love this feeling
sick

d e e p w h i t e s e a

i.

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27 days more
2 0 1 4

l i f e f o r m
deep
knowledge
harmoniously challenged
B A N G B A N G
forever changing
chaos & irony
stop falling
no lies
be upfront
b e e p b e e p

i p o l a r o p p o s i t e
too much too little
micro vs enormous
transparency vs vantablack
never always
obsessive distant
all or nothing

shush
H A L T a l l t h o u g h t s
listen with your soul
do you feel it?
give it all up
b e g u i d e d w i l l i n g l y
embrace the unknown
D I N V I N I T Y

radiant
beautiful
enjoy life passionately.