riveting

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interesting perspective
maybe that’s what i need

honest it feels whole
hybrid connection
is it real?
beyond intrigued
devilish eyes
normality out the window
attracted to the damage
is it a trap?
oh but i am willing
so, so willing
to get tied up in your twisted web

odd, i know

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interestingly eager
rachet self proclaiming male
what the heck, i thought
charming no doubt
but what about
means well
easy flow
no pressure

up in the air
decisions decisions decisions

may be cracked
to be continued..

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a g a i n . . .

you wrinkle my sheets
you crinkle my heart

who what when where why

so many questions
too many questions
constantly overflowing
unexpressed
bottled up inside

t a n g l e d i n y o u

your finger tips
your breaths
your attentiveness
your life

i am an addict
overdose me

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blinded
faded

i see what i need to chase
i know what i have to do
missing that push

tasks
missions
must complete

e a r n e d not g i v e n

I DO GIVE A fUCK

gear up

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push
fight
purpose

– – – –

all that we are
that glitz and tack
don’t belong
much better
we deserve our own
our rep
our turn of the era

– – – –

I AM GOING TO DO IT

no regrets
cannot stop
no longer an option to pause
this is real
so fucking real
got to fight
for my basic right

i cannot go back
that saran wrapped life
glass house shelter
seeing everything
yet numbed completely

pick myself up bit by bit
its just in the wrong
i promise it is temporary
align everything up
there is a light
falsely but surely
i can almost smell the air from the other side

it is perfect
it is freedom
it is my own

can hardly wait

BUT FIRST,
need to put in the works

not going to be easy
challenges and obstacles
road to run them over

g o t s i t

sparks

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in the darkest form
brightened from behind
its slight
its shy
foreground hides
background shines
and it all collides

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fight for me
unfiltered
most vulnerable state
never tried
new, i guess
cherish and in the moment
luckiness is set
happy state
hump overcomed
too deep
too ecstasy

– – – –

honest
i am glad
that circle
defines chemical error
useless
same shit different day
all talk
meaningless
from a distance
best spot i pick
good show
real life comedy
round in circles
feel bad for you especially
tricked my sympathy
no longer i care
have fun
haha

– – – –

new mood
refreshed
leave the past behind
get on with my life
too excited

p r e s s P L A Y

cant

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shake this feeling
feeling so, so off
night to morning
morning to night
cant get a break
what the fuck is wrong
is everything ok?
from what is around me
but what is this feeling

ugh
i cannot breathe

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o8: i4

i overcame

i understand

i embrace our existence
i thank you for this new realm of intimacy
i expect no more
i am playing on my terms
i seek you
i enjoy our moments

whatever comes will come
let go of this overbearing control
twist and turning in my helpless mind
give it up

I am a divine being of light. I am peaceful, protected and secure.

my best interests
supported by the highest of beings
shine through

be the best version
be understanding
be compassionate to myself

self approval
self love
self acceptance

afterall

I A M I

shatter

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locked
caged
escape
where

never ending loop
i never got it
along for the ride

shimmer this
glamour that
really is all eyes see

this gen
our digestion
our mummification
our numbness
to
real
deep
emotion

jaded
from all the stories we’ve heard

mind of a realist
i wish i must not
so much of a dreamer
yet unable to leap

flicker
collected scent
distinct
soothing familiarity
too far
too fucking far

urge to shatter
urge to break
break free from this lock
lock of the unbreakable
so ironic
so contradicting
but then again,
that is my life’s story

– – – –

sobriety
holds me sane
for how much long
i cannot predict
count day by day
count night by night
eventually it’ll come

nonsense
fivveeish
u n r e l a t a b l e

B L U R

movement

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quite stiff
one hand pat head
other hand rubs stomach circularly
at the same time
can you?

– – – –

he saved himself
right things to say
knows my buttons
this fucker doe…

deliciously dangerous

stubborn
young
sexy
alpha

– – – –

snap
my untype
not going to lie
he gets me quite excite
fingers crossed
patience

– – – –

concrete plans
to the jungle we go
throbbing veins
can hardly wait
come cum come cum

😛

– – – –

lack of expression
day of one note
junk
ended
reset
new day

t a k e r i s k s

project impossible

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knew from the get go
why bother

– – – –

90% done

lingering due to length
lingering through scattered connections

deep inside
crystal clear
how incapable
how unstable
how lost

initial contact
our souls manifested for someone similar
someone who understands

we found
hesitated to believe
we fell
through the illusive fog
we sunk
in deep deep lust

poof

reality hits Continue reading

reassured

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o n e a n d o n l y
sister from another mother
manifested
other half
thankful for everything
you amazing being
that unicorn
i’m so lucky

– – – –

what boundaries
practice what you preach
if you can’t do it
don’t expect it from me in return
cross or not
it doesn’t matter to me anymore
i will do what i want
assist situations, no more
disappointment
whatevz
cool story bro
i wonder if you are aware

d o n e w r o n g b i g t i m e

i can take both
no problemos

another level
sigh

– – – –

back on swipe
i n s a n e

isolate

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this feeling
this vibe
this environment
this noise
this crowd
this familiarity
this sound
this sight
. . . so strange

O I

weird thoughts
weird feelings
longing for something
i n d e s c r i b a b l e

a closeness
a touch
a look
a warmth
to understand
OR NOT
whatever

not fighting
not searching
not trying
not rewinding
not expecting

surrender
re surrender
H O W
i n e e d h e l p

L O S T
might be the word I’m thinking
but unwilling to admit

wish i could leave
right meow
don’t see a purpose
time wasting

OKA Y
> > > > stop

restart

manifest positivity
focus on connecting
mind over matter

D O i t I C A N