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The greatest of human emotions is love. The most valuable of human gifts is the ability to learn. Therefore, learn to love. –UJ Ramdas

i wonder
what it takes
for my papa bear
to figure this simple concept out
complexity
seems to be the theme
ever-changing
instability

i
planted seeds
seeds of thought
hoping for that silver lining
hoping that it is not too late

that sense of loneliness
that sight of hopelessness
what has led you to this
series of unfortunate decisions

little voices
i do regret
not staying and fight it out
i mustn’t guilt
i needed my sanity
i needed to become who i am right now
to be the rock they need
in time as such

this is heavy
heavier than accustomed
i foresee lots of directions
i felt weird things

its my time to give back
sending my parentals the best
unconditional love
from their blood their heart

my mama bear
how i cringe
at the person he made you be
how much you have sacrificed
for him and the rest
i understand
i promise not to let you down
pride in me
i assure you
i will take you above and beyond
bring you inner peace
expose you to more beautiful scapes
better angles of life

– – – –

i
have so much
fucking feelings
emotions
overloading my tear ducts
flooding my cheeks
fogging my brain

last day is the hardest
night is darkest before dawn

my whole journey has led me to this
to this peak of reality
i won’t shy away
i am fucking ready
to battle this out
with the love i have for my family
alongside my bloods

keep bettering myself
be swifter than the rest
must glue us together
the destiny

– – – –

one day away
one year anniversary
version two point oh
evolving into version two point one
as i type
the deepest of my neurowaves
this outlet i have
make the best of
odd talent i have

dont stop
c r e a te

three four seven

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life
what is

THIS IS

– – – –

so hard to put these feels into words
this amazingness
awesomely out of this world
almost out of body
insanely unreal
experience to the say the least

from the glance of my reflection in his eyes
to my reflection in all my recent encounters

i see ME
the me i am destined to be

how fucking sick
to get here
not even in twelve months time
super powers i must possess
LOL
just keeeeeding

priorities straight
fights no more
i am so sure
one hundred percent
no need to bicker for acknowledgement
the result is inside
shining outwardly

amongst every contact
exuding the best
acceptance of all
understanding perspective

after all, we are just human
fighting for our own
searching for our light
exploring for our home

the home in ourselves
the home in our other half
the home in our family
the home in our love

only the beginning
the beginning of my next journey
i can hardly contain the excitement
lots of preparation
last week to subdue
finish with a bang bang sha bang
2 0 1 5
you’ve been so good to me
i fucking

L O V E

shirk

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better each other
companionship
the sexiest kind
to grow
no games
be direct
life goals
extreme funs
endeavoring sights
unstoppable giggles
is what

c l e a r m i n d

no rush
stay strong
two thirds to go
time will tell

– – – –

intrigued by this
out of left field i say
building this odd connection
between this many miles apart
who wouldve thought
story sharing
pictures and greetings
its weird
can’t help but feel
probability tis big giant cloud?
i don’t know
but i will know

nice atm

– – – –

little trinkets
little flashbacks
always missing
m y l i t t l e p u n k
one and only lucky charm

how are you
how have you been
how are you eating
how have you slept

may life bring you nothing but the best
you deserve the best
if not the best of the best
know you’ll always get up so do your best
hold you hand, i wish
look forward to the next life with you
i think i love you always
always the best

– – – –

flew by it went
seven days down
explored the cities
mini me of mine

sick lines and structures
rigid culture and traditions
pretties nails and shizz
made yummies sushi and rice
heaven made bar be que we devoured
the hearts to hearts i cherish
blessing may it be at times
great memories for life

T O K Y I O O O DES

ides

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people come
people go
passing by
without a hold

staring into the landscape
aligned to perfection
unreal almost
glimpse of reflections
background fading
focused silhouettes
open imagination

beings
uniques
varieties
left
walks
right
glides

on and on with life

– – – –

rush less
savor and embrace
each moment
each smile
each person
each connection

– – – –

twist i wonder
forever thoughts
cant stop listening
perfect lyrics

wildest dreams
saw the end as it begins
this is going to take me down
i surrender whole heartedly
under one condition
remember to remember me

goodly normal but wild
the shape of your dreams
unbelievable chance
said your eyes
you’re my chosen one
stop doubting that

if i could go back
i would say a few more things
i would hold on a few moments longer
like it could be the last time ever
which could be the case it seems
that thought alone chokes me up
here’s hoping
tall glass of noon
happily ever after thoughts
to the next encounter, cheers

– – – –

harder to depict
one so close to home
minimizing unrealistic holds
of something that might not come to be
need to remain optimistic
not shooting for the moon
staying grounded
a first
best kind of norm
what i dreamed of for myself
at the start of this journey
could it be
can it be
so many possibilities
ugh
but stop
be patient
trust
flow… it goes

– – – –

my hearts
boys to men
these memories
never enough time

how many chances does one get
to give and receive so much
l o v e
h a p p i n e s s
how lucky do i completely feel
to be a part of their lives
for them to be a part of mine

instant moments
creative spirits
space exploration
top security
casa di sexy diablos
diabloettes
eye opening
nonstop enjoyment

unexpected attraction
who is she i questioned
it is who she knows herself
answered the foolishly wise
lightbulb
of course
that’s what it is
fully aware
i strive
constellation
imprinted in my mind
i will be back

s q u a d
rebond completion
next adventures in the works
time may fly
but we will never change
#ifweevermeetagain
always surely completely

– – – –

feels
in my veins
hitting the boiling point
so much urge
oozing out of each cell
can’t stop looking
can’t stop exploring
can’t stop
fucking amazing

s i m p l y

identifier 

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say it
wear it
dream it
scream it

one more time
backwards
e c i l a
upside down
what does it
who says it
whoever unriddles this shall be mine

– – – –

feeling blindly
blinding feeling

wait

i mean

feeling blinding
overwhelming feelings
not so sure
of these waves of emotions
the twist especially
unexplainable
out of the norm

– – – –

as if

what if

to if

if has lost its meaning

– – – –

trust is the theme
trust in the universe
trust in life
trust in me, most importantly

trust the experiences
trust the significance of events
trust the feelings
T R U S T

working on it 👍🏼

– – – –

new city
first for my physical body
cant say for my deja vu’s
never gets old

altitude
longitude
atmospheric differences
always one of a kind

feeling lucky
feeling happy
feeling all the good stuff

e X c i t e m e n t

light

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sore cheeks
endless laughters
how lucky
am i

the journeys the thing
so i have realized
no longer obsessing
that perfectionist mentality
suppressing completely
go with the flow
let life happen

– – – –

one week later
got my stomach twisted
i cringe at the distance
wonder if thats your feelings too

unexpected
how much yellow
my little big giant
one nights encounter
got me smirking all day long
the mark
the jokes
the sensations
the eyes
the music
all so close
yet so far

the first time to say
completion of effort
#noregrets
invited and waiting

– – – –

master of time pieces
how interesting

can’t say yet
shhhh
be patient
unjinx please

– – – –

four hundred miles up
reunited with my hearts
long overdue

bao
how time flies
never have i ever
experience such soul filling words
filling soul experiences
my best friend, i can say

five years ago
this state we stand
undoubtly identified
craziest
out of control
d o w n duo
look at us now
this fascination
this journey of life
hand in hand
taking over the aesthetics of life

di
half of our lives
fourteen rounds of three hundred sixties
a different side
a different connection
unconditional love
the best kind of love
ever so grateful
for half of one of the bests
missing other half
reunion plans, in the works
fingers crossed

i miss already

– – – –

ten days countdown
soaring higher and beyond
got so many plans ahead
can’t stop won’t stop
my playground

l i m i t l e s s

twist

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this bugger tho 
passively cutely largely just right 

(k)ourage 
the weekend
or nah 
new experiences 
almost rewritten the old 

at sea
away 
crazy fate
gotta catch em’ all

twinkling lights 
sexy minx 
ten out of ten
completely perfect
damn gosh thanks

i feel the honesty 
i feel the admiration 
legitly meaning every syllable 
taking my confidence to a whole new level 

playfully witty
absurdly young 
the sixth

– – – –

this city 
ridiculously enticing 
good vibes 
unrealistically charming 
new favorite city 
undoubtly

– – – –

this girlfriend 
one and only 
no other person i can share this with 
our laughs 
our jokes 

our adventures 
someone i admire 
someone i cherish 
cannot be more thankful 

o v e r j o y e d

der kuss

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rodger that

#noregrets
first choice mutually
my straylian soldier
“confidence booster”

P R A G U E
unforgettable
my ultimate company
super cutie
old town square
le clock tower

bits
and ticks
seconds fly by
countdown of us
making the most of each other
to the deepest bits
drops
reds
every sensation
the way i like

never have i ever
dance the night away
public displays of affection
champagne room what is

– – – –

afterthought

so strange
so close
in days time
could get used to

– – – –

double karma
too many mars
can’t lie and say i don’t reminisce
good times
felt your passion
reignite mine

words unsaid
maybe next year
maybe never
nonetheless

t h a n k y o u

now

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the secret
it seems

perfect balance?

– – – –

red queen’s race no more

finding my truth
i seek and i shall find

evolving

– – – –

a b c s
stuck in my head
tug of war
can’t seem to lure it out

what the flow
with what flow
the usual
would
be
but why

analyze
no outer substance
not a single milligram
all day

not here right meow
please try again tomorrow

b e e p