isolate

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this feeling
this vibe
this environment
this noise
this crowd
this familiarity
this sound
this sight
. . . so strange

O I

weird thoughts
weird feelings
longing for something
i n d e s c r i b a b l e

a closeness
a touch
a look
a warmth
to understand
OR NOT
whatever

not fighting
not searching
not trying
not rewinding
not expecting

surrender
re surrender
H O W
i n e e d h e l p

L O S T
might be the word I’m thinking
but unwilling to admit

wish i could leave
right meow
don’t see a purpose
time wasting

OKA Y
> > > > stop

restart

manifest positivity
focus on connecting
mind over matter

D O i t I C A N

two zero one five

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new
dejavu
not quite
b u t
definitely somewhat white
near far
nowhere you are
deep within me
no substance to think

fog
Blurred
life is a hurricane
twirling up
to the top
no pause no pause

life’s odd
expect the unexpected
no case in life

where to go now
what to do here
so many options
so many chances

r e s o l u t i o n s
> listen
> active
> german
> mindful
> present
> no regrets
> no fear
t a k e e v e r y c h a n c e

little big handsome glover
where you at
shy cutie
my favorite type
i dig
chance meet
anticipate next
new looker
love discoveries

life
new year
should be wiser
would be wiser
do not rush
think twice
think thrice
what rice

bars
favorite
if I had a choice
be on that white day and night
choice
unsober
i dig
but not a good way
mixology
of all kinds
chemistry & emotions

creamy
hard
sticky
crave
lick
swirl
rhythm

U G H

vitiate

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n o m o r e
be infinite
to infinity and beyond
thoughts cannot be verbalized
short term
long term
too many decisions

– – – –

defying gravity
as if it is the first time
talents
something green
something perky
tasty mmmm
yellow brick road

– – – –

mia
whats new
no feelings
prefer it this way

– – – –

no second chance
kind of bummed
for some reason im stuck on one
no response
effed shit up . . . .
sigh
my bad

– – – –

w i s h l i s t
happy gummy bears
w h e r e

W A N T M E O W

black black heart

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that intimate
that gooey
that shade

i gift to you
times two

– – – –

dizzo
swimming in white
floato
spinning in ty
licko
sucking in twice

– – – –

shallow thoughts
simple words
shrinking intelligence
swallow it down

– – – –

i said no
surprised myself
purposeless wasting stamina
believe i am strong
but i really am
you see?

c o u n t d o w n

hohoho

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maison michel
M O T H E R d a u g h t e r
matching
together forever

– – – –

h o l l y j o l l y

thankful for my family
holiday everyday
s p o i l e d

custom monogram case
dollah dollah beels yall
picasso-to-be kit + sex shades
date with elphaba & glinda in hollywood
unthoughtout credits

– – – –

i can kind of see
mildly visible
your withdrawal
your troubles

efforts appreciated
continuous forms of communication

much to prove
tolerable mr right meow
something mysterious
still intriguing

– – – –

no bs
testing my limits
attracted
can i bi?
weirdly pushy
honest
potentially yummy

c h a n c e ?

– – – –

w i t t l e o n e
long awaited plans
along for the ride
i likey
c o n q u e s t

i aint going no where
show and tell

p o s s i b l y . . . .
too little too late

– – – –

need isolation
need space
need rediscovery
need filler
need cells
need white+

R E f u c k i n g S E T
get ready for the end of a new beginning

its coming

– – – –

you’ve been great
2 0 1 4

prep

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hours and hours
days and days
weeks and weeks
e v e n months and months

bleh

i am jolly
in the spirit, even
can’t help but feel
a twinkle of dissatisfaction

. . . and then what?

– – – –

new project
i8
yeah
no biggie
FUCK YOU
made my year
bestestestestestestttt

– – – –

p r e s e n t p r e s e n t s
ready?

city

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I L O V E . . .

B U T

confusion
what is wrong
what went wrong
does anyone have the answer
can anyone solve the equation
will there be a silver lining
is there going to be a good ending?

its so brutally obvious
can’t even be oblivious

right in front
dirty dirty dirty x

– – – –

over

refocus

crystal c l e a r

– – – –

ignorance is bliss
bliss is
w h a t i s
hallow absence

purge all evidence
throw it up
flush it
G A G
don’t take it personal
donut

– – – –

blink
s n u f f
deaf
l i c k t o t a s t e
TICKLE
air in

thinning patience
click clack
t i c t a c t o c t o e

– – – –

si vous plait
S A V e S C A P E m o i

v

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victory
milestone
proud
B L O O D

your ability to conquer is limitless. your potential to succeed is infinite. shoot for the stars. i believe in you. i love you.

dec 19 two zero one four
downtown LA

c o n g r a t u l a t i o n s

blocked

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sick
of change of plans
changing minds
restless decision making
a or b fuck no option c

b l o c k a g e
brain cells stopped at the red
continuously reminded to halt by some white
in this moment
i need clarity
i need not insanity
i need not anyone but myself

words of a lone wolf
u n s u r e
yeah that’s right
HUH
self conflicting irony at its best
best in me
me in best
f u d g e z e f a c e

nonsense
anti anxiety
so much space

Z E N
where art thou
are you within arm’s reach
are you sailing away
are you upside down flying
are you taking off on a rocket ship
take me with you

barred
i love this feeling
sick

d e e p w h i t e s e a