strange sudden overflowing

urge to know
urge to discover
urge to open
urge to linger

what to do with all this urge
where to set it
how to deal with it

many unanswers
swiveling in my helpless mind

– – – –

read . . . so easily

how . . . did you manage to see

felt . . . magnetic connection

scared . . . too close to heart

attracted . . . absurdity

pulls . . . insanely

– – – –

i feel tangled in you
still and over and again
lucky charm, you say
then can you really show me?

i am just waiting

i am no longer approaching

too much pain
too much uncertainty
too much unsubstance

at the stop
looking over my shoulder
the shadows flashes

ifs
whats
maybes
indefinitely

– – – –

drop its
R E focus
goals in stone

k e e p on g o i n g

interesting perspective
maybe that’s what i need

honest it feels whole
hybrid connection
is it real?
beyond intrigued
devilish eyes
normality out the window
attracted to the damage
is it a trap?
oh but i am willing
so, so willing
to get tied up in your twisted web

odd, i know

– – – –

interestingly eager
rachet self proclaiming male
what the heck, i thought
charming no doubt
but what about
means well
easy flow
no pressure

up in the air
decisions decisions decisions

may be cracked
to be continued..

– – – –

a g a i n . . .

you wrinkle my sheets
you crinkle my heart

who what when where why

so many questions
too many questions
constantly overflowing
unexpressed
bottled up inside

t a n g l e d i n y o u

your finger tips
your breaths
your attentiveness
your life

i am an addict
overdose me

– – – –

blinded
faded

i see what i need to chase
i know what i have to do
missing that push

tasks
missions
must complete

e a r n e d not g i v e n

I DO GIVE A fUCK

push
fight
purpose

– – – –

all that we are
that glitz and tack
don’t belong
much better
we deserve our own
our rep
our turn of the era

– – – –

I AM GOING TO DO IT

no regrets
cannot stop
no longer an option to pause
this is real
so fucking real
got to fight
for my basic right

i cannot go back
that saran wrapped life
glass house shelter
seeing everything
yet numbed completely

pick myself up bit by bit
its just in the wrong
i promise it is temporary
align everything up
there is a light
falsely but surely
i can almost smell the air from the other side

it is perfect
it is freedom
it is my own

can hardly wait

BUT FIRST,
need to put in the works

not going to be easy
challenges and obstacles
road to run them over

g o t s i t

in the darkest form
brightened from behind
its slight
its shy
foreground hides
background shines
and it all collides

– – – –

fight for me
unfiltered
most vulnerable state
never tried
new, i guess
cherish and in the moment
luckiness is set
happy state
hump overcomed
too deep
too ecstasy

– – – –

honest
i am glad
that circle
defines chemical error
useless
same shit different day
all talk
meaningless
from a distance
best spot i pick
good show
real life comedy
round in circles
feel bad for you especially
tricked my sympathy
no longer i care
have fun
haha

– – – –

new mood
refreshed
leave the past behind
get on with my life
too excited

p r e s s P L A Y