leveled



for the first time
i feel
unapologetic

still hints of guilt
but
i am relieving i
tis
amazing
i must admit

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you cute little shit
wish you can level up
play in the big leagues
no worry
mustnt fear of me wanting you to change
quite frank
it has nothing to do with me

quite bubbly
you might say
almost untouchable
hardly tangible

iniminimimiemoe

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too much to live for
not dwelling

touch the world
smell the crusine
taste the people
love the texture

open mind
live for new
new experiences
new connections
new love

n e w m e

five zero

pictureless post

endurance

i am very very very fucking proud
of i
fifty days

tiptopshape
physically + psychologically

creatively challenged
a bit
cannot lie
BUT
all in all
feel accomplished
finishing tasks with pride
loving life with goggly eyes
outweighs
it all

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shutter clicks
image composing
contrast of the lightest light

faint
taint

jello
bello
hello

well, then.. again

auf wiedersehen

closure

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deep within

i wish there was more i can do
but i understand
it is your fight
your solo battle
wish i can help you like the way you helped me
you stubborn narcissist
wish you can see
right beside you there i will be

sending you my love
always

you know where to find me.

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next chapter
washed away
chills of excitement
in place
almost time
can’t hold me back

L I F E

bliss

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in its purest form

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got the most
inquired many firsts
conquered
onto the next

weird
isn’t it

crystal clear

words flowing
smiles forming
a tick tick of satisfaction

turn up my kaleidoscope
move it left right
puzzles delight

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kisses and hugs
silence and drugs

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R E J O I C E

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i wouldn’t be any one else but me
i love me
i love who i am becoming
and i cannot wait to meet the future me

red
bold
fire
shameless

2 0 1 5 h a s j u s t b e g u n 🔫

💣

askance

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F U C K – – I T
i am doing it anyway

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M – issing
I – n
A – ction

so many ups
so many downs
so many feelings
so many missed emotions

f l a t l i n e d

– – – –

make a choice

do you want to be right?!
do you want to be happy?!

the latter, indeed.

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you are STRONGER than you realize

the smallest words will break your heart

you WILL change
you’re not the same person you were three years ago;
you’re not even the same person you were three minutes ago
THAT IS OKAY
especially if you don’t like the person you were before

PEOPLE C O M E & G O
some are cigarette breaks
others are forest fires

you will not like your name
….until you hear someone say it in their sleep

n e v e r stop yourself from telling someone you love them
….even if it is at 4am

make sure you have a safe place
whether it’s the kitchen floor
or the travel section of a bookshop
just make sure you have one

you will be scared of all kinds of things
of spiders and clowns and eating alone
BUT your biggest fear is that people will see you the way you see yourself

sometimes, looking at someone will be like looking into the sun
sometimes someone will look at you like you ARE the sun
WAIT FOR IT

always be friends with broken people
….they know how to survive

you can love someone and hate them
A L L at O N C E
you can miss them so much it aches
but still ignore your phone when they call

you are good at something
whether it’s making people laugh
or remembering their birthday
do not let anyone tell you these things don’t matter.

YOU will always be hungry for love.
always.
even when that someone is asleep next to you
….you will envy the pillow touching their cheek
and the sheet that is hiding their skin

loneliness has nothing to do with how many people are around you
but how many of them understand you

people say I LOVE YOU all the time
even when they say ‘why didn’t you call me back’ or ‘he is an asshole’
…make sure you are listening

you will be okay.

Y O U W I L L B E O K A Y !

expanding

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expanding infinitely
we paused and said out loud uninamously
interesting
so many soul mates
i am too lucky
platonic chivalry i assume

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just close your lips
follow my lead
you can be trained
but i don’t know if im into it
you’re cute
stay unbreakable

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the honest
the wild
the crazy
the kink

i am pretty excited
can’t wait to meet you too
too intrigued
can hardly contain

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as for you you little punk
i got you
for some reason
deep down inside
i want to take care and nurture you
i want to lick your wounds
i want to hold you

i can do all that
with no emotions attached
it’s quite cool, isn’t it

your charms
your face
your words
all helped me on this new road
and i thank you

can’t wait to play again
you sex
you kiss
you lick

b i t e m e h a r d e r

snap

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snapped back to reality

truth
so much truth
lots to swallow

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tuning in for the best now
only the best
because I deserve the best

the best is around the corner

– – – –

relaxed day
lazy
bummin
rolling around

feeling sexy
wolfie from down under
just teasing
too many miles away

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single awareness week
A L R I G H T
im ready boo

my head
my life
my voice

h i p h i p h o o r a y

blow

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blow my mind
or better
blow yours
with a shotgun
no guts left

its my own problem
sick in the in
unable to express
any bit of e m o t i o n
killing off mine
just not somebody new

sinking cells
sunken all the way
what was it used to be
blurry so cannot be
fuck me
how

this shitting cycle
ugh unable to breathe

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O I N K
adventure time one of my third
white gurl crazy
that slice of bacon
shakin his thang
all laughs

droplets of missing you

F I T
popo airforce lion
too much self love
so much narcissism
different kind of crowd
interesting products
all competes
lines
different world

yummilicious hot
melt in your mouth

unwind

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too much time to think

spinning rut
spiral of overthinking

close one eye
shut down my mind

twirling out of control
filling the void with garbage
not better
almost disgusting
the internet
these communications
wipe them off

can i be normal now?
over being emo

p l a y d e a d

inimical

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n o t

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admitting feelings
hard hard thing
surprising feeling
unimaginary

smiles and giggles and brights and more
from your lips to your sternum down to your toes
licking every inch of my skin
holding on that time
is it no more?

get out of my head
driving me crazy
quite frankly
hung over the edge I feel
thus why
all these randoms
the net to break my fall

blehh x x

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what falling in love is
ever get to experience me that
that feeling of longing
for more than the physical being

that smile
that twinkle
truly happy for you

shining
shimmering
splendid

J A H